am stucked in reverse
if u get wat i mean.....

I have been sound trippin yesterday while waiting for my siesta time...was so full yesterday after eating a lot, that I just lied down on my parent's bed...I liked it there, my room is kinda not that okay, I guess the Katrina hurricane went by and really passed my room ahehehe. Again, i honestly had this blank spaces, the kind that Im so tired to really dwell because it just keeps poppin in my mind over and over again...you couldn't think hard and even contain your thoughts.
Am annoyed with myself and then through music again...I found something that kinda inspired me...that kinda opened my eyes, that kinda gave me hope.
And this was the song....Fix You by Coldplay.
I just wish to be able to fix myself in the days to come...I dont wanna be able to be stucked in reverse...if u know what I mean.
I know only I can help myself, coz really am not making sense blabbering, whining and complaining and I know sometimes am such a complete annoyance being not the person that I used to be.
I wish to be able to get my old self..it's been hard not getting to talk to persons I used to talk to when I have this attitude problem of mine. Yeah, I miss my olderst bro, if there is one person who truly, honestly and wholeheartedly understands me....it's my big bro REX. He knows exactly what to say and what to do when am faced with these unexpected curve balls hitting my hard head...
Anyways enough of these...let me leave you with this sort of my theme song to date....

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I


Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.