well iam having these empty spaces again and again and i mean seriously it just gets annoying whether i may be at work, or even finding time to sleep, i have these blank spots...weird ayt?but am not really sure why the heck am feelin this way, one minute am laughing my hearts out and when it's over, i go back to this really weird world of mine...staring at something and just not thinking bout anything, as in yeah, not a damn thing is really on my mind...not a thing!
seriously....i dont like this thing happening, it is really such a waste of time just thinking and much worst bout nothing at all, and you even wander why, what the hell is really work.and seriously am terribly annoyed by these weird events, i don't want it to get to a point where people around me will notice my monstrous character and in the long run do get annoyed.
am getting really impatient, and the more i try, the more it gets hard, like really bursting my heart inside and you just wanna put it all off, but how???
have you ever felt this ordeal am having, like youre stucked for a moment and you couldn't just get out of it the more you try to do it, the more it gets harder and really harder like seriously...you just wanna get out of this yet....really,how?
i know am gonna be okay, sometimes it just hits me like, is this gonna be forever? what am i here for...like am i just doing the right things, am i saying the right things, or am just making things work by just thinking negative......
the person that could only help myself is of course just me....but really how???
am such a fake nowadays...faking my smile, my laugh, and its making me nuts!
i know....this too shall pass. am just wandrin how do i get here...imean why do i feel this way???a lot of questions really poppin in my mind lately that it just makes me just ask again why????
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