my very LAst DAy before i turn another YEar older that is!

it's my off and now am making this entry so fast that i wanna just blurt out some specific things a few hours before i turn another year older....

right now....

am starving but i don't wanna eat for specific reasons
am blogging but i don't know if iam making sense and if i will make sense.
am kinda hesitant to celebrate my birthday coz...really, in the truest sense of the word...am not happy as i can be....
i miss my kuya, i wish i can just say to him all my hurt and pain, all i can do is just wait for his arrival next month.
iam mad at myself for not being angry enough to the people who have pasts hurt me.
iam mad at myself too that i can't be honest at my present predicament.
i wanna go home but how heheheh
i wanna just sleep
i wanna wish
i wanna end this hehehehe
sheeeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzzzz
this is wat am gettin for being so old now hahhaha


happy birthday to me......
i could only wish!