the holy week that was.....

my 5 day holiday is almost over atleast til tomorrow before 10pm...and now iam in a net cafe trying to review the week that was...
yep, my holy week was a lot different from the holy week that i used to have, before i would really go to the church with my sis and do the station of the cross and really pray and contemplate and reflect....
this year it is a lot different, my 2 sisters went to the province and intend to stay there till the holy week is over, iam left alone here in manila together with my bro joel and my parents. i dunno, not that i hate my sisters, well sometimes we have disagreements but it was such a relief that they wont be around for the holidays, heheh bad, me?!!!! well. sometimes i have this time that i wanted to be alone in the room and really refelct and think on my own, sometimes we just clash...
anyways enuf of that.my holy week was just ok.....

FRIDAY- was just home, so tired and sleepy but wasnt that sleepy so i end up planning what to buy for the next day's excursion with a few office friends very early the following day.
I end up going to a closed mall, (at sm centerpoint) i realized all the malls and the likes are closed on a Good Friday.....gocha...wasnt even thinking but oh well
Just nice that I get to eat my mom's sphagetti, yep, i did not follow the rules, end up eating meat on a Good FridaY...sorry, was really craving for it...i dozed off before 10 and look forward on the trip next day.

SATURDAY - went out early with chelo, and meet up with a few other friends, we decided to go to a nearby pool, a few minutes drive from JI's place...the place was so full of people, that I did not even like to dip on the pool. But it feels good to hang around with these guys, talking and laughing, drinking beer on a good Saturday and of course eating,heheh.
I was kinda feeling lonely, being the sentimental that Iam, I end up looking nowhere and thinking and God I realized i just so much miss him.
I end up having a good cry with these people, was so ashamed at them i guess they are so suprise or shock that I was thjis really transparent...I know I just have to burst out...
Went home though as I promised my parents that I will go home ...slept early was really tired.

SUNDAY - was just home, did my laundry and fix my room...was again looking forward on my trip to bulacan to see my best friend jho.
My 2 sisters went home from their trip to pangasinan...well i kinda miss them...the house again is noisy...hahaha

MONDAY - was dead set to go to bulacan early but was so lazy to travel in this very hot climate...end up riding a bus at 4pm...
wat we did....
talk...
i cried again...
this is the first time iam telling jho my whole story, me and sweety are over, and boy was she surprised!
jho is my best friend for the longest time and i know i kinda felt unfair that i didnt tell her my predicament was bcoz i just want her to be affected and all...knowing her, i dont want to spoil her love affair,iam so happy bout her and her significant other's love affair....they are so sweet...
now i miss sweety....
i have been recieving no number calls on my fon....i feel it's him
iam just so afraid to talk to him, i frankly dont know what to say,

we talk a lot till we are both lying in bed.....even though iam sleepy.wanted to tell her a lot of things...

we did not swim as earlier planned...but talking is a lot better.....hehe

TUESDAY- am here in sm city, having interent and blogging, while jho is with a patient somewhere near here, so while am waiting here iam

see how different my holy week was.....
but no regrets, i know i havent had that ritual as before, but I loved that I got to spend it with my good friends, my home, my bro, my sistahs, my best friend, and my parents.
I know am not a religious person. but i have faith and i believe in God....
and God knows, that i have reflected and have summed all my bitterness and tried to forgive those who have hurt me.
yeah only God knows how.

amen

till later