WHAT IS ON MY MIND RIGHT NOW????


I read this quote by Paulo Coelho....and then it hit me....

"Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering."

Paulo again moved me, awakened my senses, and talked to me, I wonder how he do it. Yesterday, I am again having this blank and empty spaces, and then I realized....now...what the hell is wrong with me....

eureka!

"People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain."

now....hear this....

am in pain...

i know i have to deal with it..... until when????