THINKING........

am just tryin to figure out where i will be in 2 yrs...and i cant quite imagine yet...if ill have a child, be married...be here still in the philippines..am trying to have my thoughts clear hehehe
well i just remembered what my bf told me 2 days ago when he called me and i cried all my heart to him when i told him abt my cuzins...and he suddenly uttered "u know what it means...we should make a family, you and I"
so that made me think again about how will my life would be in 2 years...and what willI say to my bf when he comes here in december...or anytime  this year and will suprise me...(i bet my dad too will be suprised as he told me he will first ask my Dad his permission for me  to marry him and come with him in Cali...) and then I could only guess what will he feel and think..dats y am kinda apprehensive...to also atleast try to tell them (my family) that my bf wants to get married this december when he comes home and then take me there...
well..i dunno what to say but of course am happy that he thinks about his future with me
 i just dont know if iam really ready...
so im just here still thinking....