...."ewan"

might sound such a cliche....but "ewan" is a tagalog word for "i dunno" it's an overused word for me for the last 24 hours.
yesterday i was really finding it hard to sleep, am ranting and wanted to really cry out loud...i had an argument with my brother and i don't have a clue why i suddenly fell really mad yesterday to my bro, he was late for our appointmment we were supposed to tour my cousin around but he was late so i went mad at him, i called him and asked him why he was always late for ay appointmet and he is so irresponsible...
anyway..i just wanted to blurt evrything out here as it is not my character to really say things that i mean...especially the not so good things...
i'll try...
iam kinda mad at my parents coz lately i havent been getting any of their attention, well my dad does,but he plays favorite to my bro, joel so when he is around, i don't exist
my mom, her favorite is my sis che, so when iam around and she is also around..im just a nobody...
i accidentally hit the publish button last friday so i published this as it is not yet through.
well my weekend is okay...last friday sweety called,and he was happy as ever to talk to me (?) well he is, singing once again...so it kinda made me smile for a while after all the hussles that i have been through the past few days....the signal...was kinda bad so we kinda hussled to the bad signal..but anyways i dont wanna let him go so i tried the best i can to try to understand him.
i had a great sleep after all that...he is so sweet and he makes it a point to realy get in touch with me....i am beginning to love the person that he is now, more than before.nobody kinda treat me this way unlike of course him....
i woke up at 8pm that night (past 8 i think) in time for the last episode of the teleserye (a soap opera ) am watching that everyone is craving about...it is entitled "sana'y wla ng wakas" (hoping there is no end) it is a love story but i kinda didnt like the ending, i wanted ara (the woman in the lead role) to end with leo, but she ended choosing christian (the other guy) so i was kinda mad...hehehe
but anyways i wanted to see how it will end so i can tell the story to my good friend in aust who was bragging me to tell him the ending (yes, that's you friendster) hahahah
well...some good things never last, though, i wish it have ended the way i wnated but, oh well.
well,am kinda starving, gtg then now...i dunno ewan...iam kinda stubborn with things right now, i cant think clearly, moodish...and so insecure...and so mad...a lot of doubts and fears...
ewan...
maybe am just
average
everyday
sane
psycho
goddess
hahaha

gtg till later
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