we do what we have to do

ever felt this annoyance not particularly to what you're doin or what youre thinking, or to somebody....but you are annoyed to the fact that you don't know what's wrong yet you feel so irritated?
i actually am feelin this way, well iam not sure why, maybe bcoz i have been sleepless (not really) sleep deprived would be the right term...i actually am just havin atleast 2 or 3 hour sleep before i go to work..am not sure why....not bout him again though...well ok, partly him but i guess have to face the fact that probably it's my problem,my ownself i guess.
i know am tryin my best to accepting everything..as in...(as if?) hahah..i am trying my best to smile inside and out...because iam known to be perky, fun to be with and less serious...specially to my real set of friends...to some am such a snob but really am not...i just dont have this habit of welcoming evryone to my real word, am particularly choosy to my set of friends because....iam such...hahah
actually i have a lot of questions...in my mind in my life right now.....
such as....
1. what am i gonna do now that iam not enjoying work....
2. resigning is an option but hard to take the risks....what else?
3. am i gonna practice my being a physical therapist in the next few mos...years?
4. am i gonna be rich with this present disposition....
5.who knows???hahha
6. is someone really meant for me???? atleast give a hint!!!!
7. am i gonna change my beliefs..and my morals???? hope not!
8. is there a life out there for me? atleast a fair life?
9. when will this torments be over?????
10. why am i sad bout nothing at all.....?

see how weirdo iam......ayh naku..am feeling that iam not really making sense....

next time! maybe