Am such a Schmuck

For some reason i wanna write something....and shout it out...but it's pointless...
It's like doing the same old shit..doing the same thing over and over again yet you know at the end of the day....it is bound nowhere...it's just there...but it will only last till.....
Hayy..I admit it though....still am not over ...still am hoping againts hope...still he's there...and I am here on my corner..waiting and what the f....can someone tell me that am damn Stupid?
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Last weekend he went out to see me...
Coffee...conversation....
Closure....

?????

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But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
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Confession......
Yeah...we held hands...
We cried like crazy...drunk like there are no beers anymore around us the next day.....
Said I love you's........

But then.......

I sticked to what is right even hurting me in the end......
SAID MY GOODBYE.....
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But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I


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I
keep
on
BLEEDING


in
this crazy
killer feeling

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I wish I really know how to quit him......