Contemplating

After a while I learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul...And I learn that love does not mean leaning...
and company does not always mean security And I begin to learn that kisses are not contracts...and presents are not promises And I begin to accept my defeats with my head up and my eyes ahead.With the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child.
And I learn to build all my roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down in flight...After awhile I learn that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.Sometimes you are to learn to forgive yourself.I also learn that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief. So I plant my own garden and decorate my own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring me flowers...And I learn that I really can endure pain that I'm really strong...
and I really do have worth...I learn that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

And I learn and I learn...

with every goodbye I learn...