Freakin Tired

Iam lost again in my own little world....

I dunno what to do next Iam not happy with what am doing yet I could not find the courage to just quit and find what I want to

In the first place Im not sure what my golas are right now.

It all began when mum uttered this weekend that am getting old and that am not doin somethin in my life.

I know she's a bit right but I know that am doin my own little thing it's just am not motivated and Iam not sure really what to do next.

One part of me says go and move on....try my luck there and start right? right? am not sure am so afraid..am not even sure if I it would be a good decision.

For a week now I end up crying with some of my calls, not bcoz Iam havin a hard time but bcoz I dont want anymore calls am not sure how to handle. I know its immature of me but am not really sure where are those tears comin from.

Is it from the stress,the fact that am not ready with homenet...and wireless thingy,that Iam not in a happy place? Or am just freakin tired?

I do apologize for the people I end up being so cranky with. I know am so hard at all of you, at times I try to shy away as well, coz I dont wanna end up cryin and venting with no nonsense but a really big deal on my end.

I just feels so alone bcoz I want to I know

I just need that space till am sure what I want.

Hayy..am just so freakin tired that yes, I am considerin quittin before I get really tired.

Make up your mind Dee....

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