Almost But Not Quite

I was still hurting from the last break up

And then you decide to go back to Manila.

Your ex called it quits on your 7 yr engagement for reasons still we all dont know.

We were buddies back in college,my biggest crush and at 1 month were my roomate...Never thought we'd be best friends and no strings attached. It does exist. Yea it does.

You were in the East Coast for almost 7 years now, livin your dreams and getting richer yet you said WALA TAYONG LOVELIFE. The big difference is, the dollars on your bank account and me....not an inch closer to your moolah.

But we dated the last two weeks you were here in Manila, quite awkward pa nga at one point my ex came with us because of miscommunication.

I thought we had something something heheh..but Im so sick of relationships and guys...and yes you were honest enough that you are still hoping for the 7 yr commitment you had with your ex and that it would be unfair on both of us to try something we're not sure of.

And you know how allergic Iam as well with long distance relationships. The last two I had was not good and is so phobic on my part.

Thats why we decided to just stop it..and to not even try for all we know we might just be ruining the almost 11 yr friendship we had.I wouldnt forget how you spoil me from making sure am well fed at meal times when we had our internship back way then.How you make sure am clean when Iam drunk from one of our crazy gimmicks. How you once punched one of our classmates who were being mean and taking advantage of me.Most of all for the phonecalls you make whenever you have your stop overs whenver you fly to your mum in the States and your dad in Japan.

You say mean things and mean it so I can just learn from it. We may have lose tracked a couple of times but we still find each other no matter what.

Am so glad we met once again...and though there have been some awkward moments the time you were here in Manila...we still understood each other.

Yea, the last entry was for you..coz you did treat me like a princess...there have been some guys who have wooed me and loved me the exact way I wanted to be adored..but nothing comes close to what we have..you will always be the only man who truly endured my worst and stick at my best although not always but when we do have time...we find way to catch up.And I meant what I told you a while ago..you will be my BFF...best friend forever.

Maybe there were reasons why we dont end up together..maybe because we are just cool as friends and if we cross that boundary..we might lose the great friendship we have shared all through this years.

And sabi mo nga di mo ko type kse mas macho pa ako sayo hehehe...

I will miss you best friend..who knows when's the next crazy dates..me in New York following you hahah! or you finding me somewhere In London or Singapore...

Am not sure...

hahah gulo ko talaga....Bon Voyage....

Muntik na...but not quite pre'...Love ya Buddy!