The Ex Encounter

I wasnt expecting to see him again,not at this point that am on the losing end once again,last week,my ex told me the truth and found out that I was again ditched, it was a random encounter that I wasnt really prepared to know at past 12 am peeps!

Anyways..he said he's ok. The current love of his life is also working in the same company where Iam. He said it's definitely her, she hearts her so much she says. Too insensitive of him to utter that on our encounter and then he said that, he is so sorry for bringing that up. He said I didnt like to hurt you, but it is her now.

It's her now....wtf...heheh..I tried to be civil as much as I can..the alcohol is perhaps helping me out to calm down. Last week was D, and now Pert, telling me all these in the wee hours of the morning. I didnt go home last night and spend the night over Rosey's pad. I didnt know Pert was here again in Manila.Well, maybe he misses the gf...but I didn dare ask why he came back fr the States. I asked myself...is this happening because I need to accept that my ex's are far better with their current love.

I didnt know where Rosey where, but what surprised me,was I was not shedding any tear but listening to him..am I this numb I asked myself? I just smiled for every bit of story he tells me. He just was surprised how my hair got short. I remembered...I went to Fix Salon that morning and had my ahir cut..darn..he hates that I have a short hair when we were together. I told him...I am single and I can do what I want without anyones approval...I jsut laughed and then he held my hand..

I shook my head and said.."Why do we have to talk...am ok...alam ko ayaw mo na sa akin,,and you are happy with her. That is done.we dont need this shitty."

And he said ;" I just want you to be happy. Am not saying this to make you feel better..but Iam saying this because I do really mean it."

"So...what?"

"Bitter ka na D..and I know part of the reason why is me"

"You think so? Malamang..but am ok talaga"

At this point..I was feeling dizzy..shoot! The gin chuckie is having the effect na ata..and then I went to the other seat..and controlling my tears.

Pert hugged me at this point and again said sorry.

And at that point...guess what..I burst into tears and cried like helpless baby.

I dunno what happened, but I felt like I was being attacked by my ex's.I mean..why do they have to say these things one by one. Making eme realize that the unpredictable break up happened...because it was just never meant to be. I was trying to punch him and slapping him and nurmerous times saying " you're all fakes...makakarma kayo...I hate you all!"

Pert didnt let go and instead welcomed those punches and slaps. And also saying , "OK, slap me, beat me up if this will make you happy!"

I said,"You have no idea how bitter and hurt Iam and I have to agonize this feelings since the day I found out you were cheating...the slaps and the punches..it will heal..it will hurt but for a certain period..but the hurt that you gave to me...until now...it isnt healed,.and right now you again gave another bruised. you will never quit until Iam knocked down...Damn you..damn you all!Magsama kayo ng gf mo bcoz u so deserve each other. Losers!"

I went down on the roof deck and hurried back to the 12th floor tried to lie down and again cry.

I didnt realized..I doze off.

I woke up at 3am.

Darn....loser.ako ata ang loser.I still cant get over the fact that I was cheated by my ex's.

And I so hate it..

I was just dreaming lang pala.

Damn!