the deliquent blogger that iam

nuthin...just whining again...i have been a deliquent blogger nowadays...i write some really nonsense entries and then i end up reading it and ask myself...wtf...i mean...why did i even bother writting it...like am lost and you cant hide the fact that really am just that freaky indie and nonsense gal....
actually, iam beginning to notice my mood swings is really getting me to trouble, and even makin my friends notice it and ask me too.....
iam ok, or so i thought....i end up just questioning myself and not getting ready for answers...like who knows!
iam just lost with words, lost with what i really want and more so what i really need. iam beginning to be the paranoid that i used to be..like before iam okay with how my life is turning and then on second thought...iam not.....like am pretending it is really ok...but really it is not.
self-denial is a game iam trying to get used to....but i know it won't get me anywhere...iam trying my damn hard to really play the game of life and be the strong person that i used to be...but i just can't.
everybody is changin...and my time clock is kinda passed out...i mean...i know i have to do something yet am not doing anything to make it a reality...i mean i have to do something with my damn life yet a lot of things just makes it stop.
yeah i know the problem is me....the problem is i just cant erase the thought that i have to move on and move now or else.....
now, am i making sense here again?


ahhhh!!!what a life iam in now....
if only i really know what to do.
can anyone just wake me up......

no, not when september ends...and i mean it...i mean like right now......

geezz.....i cant believe am pourin my innermost thoughts and not even stopping typing in the keyboard...

am lost.....
peace people.....
am alright just a little unwell i guess....(not again!!!!)