Some Ponderous thought on a Thursday 'Mornin

Is it really that traumatic when you have been promised something by someone you taught was so honest and true and pure, and he failed to do so, you never wanna hear from them and just hate them?

Iam experiencing that ordeal right now...Iam closed to tears yet am controlling it, because, Iam not even sure if he is lying or not, but I have this gut feeling. You know, that feeling, you try to understand and really think more of what to say or to confront the said person yet you find it tiring and useless, because no matter how hard he/she explains, it just gets stuck in your mind. Yeah, i bet he is 75% lying.

Talk 'bout people who are too good to be true, now I see the real him....or so i thought...again am thinking, i know things are still basless and too shallow to even dwell on it...but I just can't bear thinking bout the days when I was jaded....I don't want to be able to get into that situation again and feel that crazy killer feeling...be inlove and be cheated....you wouldnt wanna feel that pain again not in the same year!

I know I don't have the right to hate him or even command him on something I know Iam not worth commanding....But partly am sad that, it has to be like this again...

I just feel so stucked with people who I seem to like so much and afterwards you see their true colors..and you will just realize that...hey he's not into you

Am I makin sense?
Talk about being a paranoid....
Yeah Iam one!