i guess am waaaaaaaaaay too different from before

it is my off since yesterday, nothing much has been happenin except for a fact that i have broken someone's heart yesterday. not really broken, but i guess straightening out the edges may be the right term. i was just really dead set to not really complicate things, and i guess no choice to do it but in the long run, also have to really kinda hurt him a bit.
why is that things gets complicated in time? i mean, i know he is nice, i guess he has proven his worth, and am a hundred percent sure that he truly and deeply loves me. and he flatters me, he makes me laugh, he is so sweet, i could not ask for more.
i like him....but love him?
it is an understatement.

so.....i have to tell the truth.....

and i have to let go.

he cried.

i did too.

why?

maybe in a way, i wished i could love him back as much as he loves me.

but i just don't wanna be unfair and pretend things are okay, that we are bound to something really terrific and so on and so forth.

i know i have been keen on details about love and all for the time being, i just wished that when i get into a relationship once again after nursing a broken heart...iam at it for the long run. but with this guy, he is too good to be true, i know he is true but things around will just complicate my ideals and beliefs.

am waaaaaaaaaay different from before i guess, mnaybe my heart is made out of stone for the past 8 months, i dont get flattered with some really cheezy stuffs, and although things are pretty obvious right before my eyes, i still ahve those doubts.

maybe am just mad...

maybe am just afraid

maybe am just not ready

maybe i just dont wanna hope and expect.

or maybe the right guy isnt just around just yet

maybe.

i just wish things will be clearer soon as i am really, totally, darn okay.

haaaaaaaah! i hate it when am getting sentimental!