i need a breather!

the whole day today, i was just asleep maybe for 5 or 6 hour straight although not really whole day, coz i keep waking up everytime someone comes in the room ( i slept at my parents room and used their ac) or wake up to eat or use the cr. and i was too lazy to get ready to work, i dont have any plans yet to get ready to dress up, it was past 8pm, didnt have dinner yet, and no clothes yet to wear on my mind, and again, it crossed my mind....do i need to go to work.????..heheheh am finding enough reasons to excuse myself from work, but here iam

after celebrating my second year at work, it dawned to me that i most often do get tired of these things, i mean yeah, it isnt really a bad day most of the time, it just gets irritating that you say the same things all over again for the past year i have been with this campaign, i think i need a breather after all these things, i mean...i dont really have that happy thoughts lately, all i think about is, will i make a sale, will i not encounter another irate customer? will i not get irritated of people around me pretending to hate their job yet doing so much to make "that impression"??? and just make you feel so low of yourslef and makes you feel that hey, you are not doin your job really, like, hey....grow up hahaha....am such a complainer i know, but it just gets me sad and low these days, i used to enjoy it...enjoy my work but lately, am getting the hang of it, really.

just to clarify, am not really hating my job, it's just i know i am not gonna be here forever since this is out of my line really, i vowed to practice my course in due time...when??? iam not really sure, and besides, the money kinda help me to kinda help with my finances, hehehe.i just wanna be able to try things other than this campaign...sometimes it is too much pressure on my part, i know am doing all my best, but what the heck i get? nuthin than a 3 or 4 sales for 8 hours and it just makes me feel sad and low and sometimes, useless. and askin myself, do i deserve to be here and feel all these?

this is not an everyday thing, i know sometimes i hit my sales and quotas for the day, but a day like today makes me wanna quit in a way and just make you realize maybe it is time to move on and get a real life, if you know what i mean....., maybe this is not really my line, and before it will drown me to pessimism, i wanna be able to get out of here with more of good thoughts and lessons. and not quit when you don't know anymore where you stand.....

yeah, yeah, am on the negative side again, maybe it is just human nature, am not really a quitter, just wanna be able to atleast spurt it all out before it really hits me, sometimes people can be so unreasonable and so not understanding....you know you do your best but they just dont understand...i wish they know what is going on someones's so pessimistic mind and be pretty understandable.... i wish people could have that heart most of the time, i mean the one that could uplift your spirits and make you feel better when things like these comes...but who am i to have that kind of request...am such a nobody, no namer, and not famous....hahaha

hah! tough luck! with people around me, they don't really care...hahah...marketing isnt really my line, more so is sales...i don't even though why am i here! hahah and with the kind of boss that i have...good luck, i can only wish!

this is not really a hate entry on my blog, actually i don't take it againts them if they try to be really critical sometimes, i know it's my job to do my thing and to hit the quota however impossible it may be, with the kind of leads that iam speaking with...but the thing is, sometimes, i wish they could be reasonable enough to understand things, not just me, but people around like me who kinda feel so low when going to work....it pretty is unfair going to work just to have that day salary and not to be able to achieve the team's goal...but lately, that is how i feel, and am not ashamed to admit it, maybe i really need to shy away from work and look for new things and forget about it first and really ponder what to do next....yeah i need a breather....

i need a breather, heheh...anyways it will be a month and 5 days and i'll be off to baguio and pangasinan and plan to have a 5 day leave at work....

i wanna be able to compromise myself and
have a complete overhaul amidsts all these tormenting events hahahah....goodluck!