wats with me????


Yesterday, I met someone, not really met, like physically met, we kinda chatted really long before I went out of the office...it was a really not a planned thing. I just answered his questions, as well asks him questions. He told me that Iam cute and he is interested.

He saw my pic, I saw his too....and we kinda bonded ......hmmmm...it's not what you think! We chat about a lot of things, and just enjoyed every minute of it.

As soon as I got home, he texted me....as in super megatext! Yah..to think he is in California...and me here in Manila...Good thing he has this globe roaming where i reply to any of his questions.....from 8am til past 2pm we were texting...as in!

I remember G, and of course my ex sweety, he did this to me..and again this guy kinda reminded me, that I can be interesting sometimes. I know am not a looker or not even drop dead gorgeous but he wanted to carry on and do his move.....liar! hahahaha.....not that I dont believe on those things but I just dont play games when it come to emotions. Really, you can say am such an old fashioned lady present at this generation but really Iam.

Maybe I just miss the feeling that you are being pursued, that someone is into you....hahah miss that feeling...but Iam just also so afraid that it might lead into nothing, not that Iam being pessimistic bout things and being afraid of the consequences. Well you can't really blame me, been through a lot of heartaches, much worst was the one I had last, with ex sweety...hahah whining bout it again i know, but...am just human, and a girl so really things like these just makes me so emotional..so....so.....mushy heheh....

But this new guy...he is really persistent...or maybe he is just leading me on...or whatever...I dont care, but he does makes me smile...I wish things will be that easy carried on...but life and emotions is not bout how much you say and how much you do.....and atleast try to do....it is really how you deal with it....ayh....lalim hehehe. Is this the prize of being so damn depressed bout love and loving? Did the break-up made me a monster all of a sudden and this new guy kinda made me think and pushed the idea that heaven knows what really may happen..or....can happen...and okay, laugh but maybe I can learn to deal with it...hahaha...He is making me believe that Iam interesting and that he likes me! Arrhggghhh, is that true???? ha? ha?ha?

Haba ng hair ko.....this guy makes me feel like am worthy of his affection, ambilisss nga like I really believe....basta he told me that he is serious...watever....am not really believing but I told him, just do your thing and...let's get it from there.... Am not really encouraging him, well you can say at some point Iam, but am not giving him that hope, you know.

But problem is....he is younger than Iam..... Hahaha! Cradle snatcher! She devil! hahahaha

What is with me?...Am not gonna play games or anything.....I just wanna know if these sort of things exists...... And if it does....is it acceptable, is it right?

Now dont give me that eye....am not into venturing on a cyber romance or a May- December love affair if that is how you may call it....I just wanna know...why would people his age...(early twenty) find that love is easy...that easy....and ideal, and so so real....

Mushy lang nga tlga ako. Pack shet

Now what the hell is wrong with me.....

Pakikay!