THE HEAT IS ON!

WHAT? Iam just talkin bout the Manila climate peeps...heheh. Haven't you notice for sometime now ( I guess early March) it's getiing hotter and hotter....and maybe one of the major reasons Iam finding it hard to really sleep at home coming from a night shift. It' s really hot, freakin hot, you can feel it on your scalp down to your toes, gives me major headaches most of the time, the perspiration is just yuckkky!!!!ewwwwwwwwwwwww........

The bad thing bout is...can't go somewhere cooler.Am so stucked in the office, I can just get a one day vacation leave and that's it. I don't intent to use my day-offs on going out of town, since what I usually do is just stay at home, clean my room and do the laundry. These are the times you wish you were just a bum , no work, no other responsibility, just pure plain gimmick and no complexities....problem is, if i were a bum, I don't have the money to go everywhere....I guess you really can't get the best of both worlds! Ayhh....I just miss Baguio, this is the time I try to go there and just have a nice get away, and forget that it's summer....

You probably felt this way I guess, wish that you can just get out of where you are and forget life's circumstances for a while. Iam feeling that. I wish to have a complete hideaway and remove myself from these things, not just the Manila climate, but people around you, you get what Iam saying, I mean, the mere fact that it is getting hot here in Manila, Iam beginning to experience hot headed peeps around me. No, not the people I talk to and try to get some sale in the US, I eman people around me, my so called friend! Arghhhh! Am whining again. Well Iam so sorry, it's just really am not the confrontational type, people can be so complicated sometimes, you try your best to understand them yet they just make you feel guilty, they make you feel that you are the one who have done them wrong.

Why is that it is really human nature to deny the fact that you have done something, and yet you just shrug it off your sytem, just stay quiet and not deal with it, as if nothing? That you have felt miserable about something and yet you don't do anything to improve it, and improve your life? And why do you think that fitting in, is really "in"? Know what Iam saying? All Iam pointing is that, grow up friend, it's past our stage....yeah I admit Iam kinda upset that you are forgetting who your real friends are. I have always been there for you, and I guess it is really my fault havin letting you feel it. And now that you think you are okay....in your own standards....you are hiding the real you and pretend to your new friends that this is really me!

Iam just hurt, that you are doing these things to yourself, you are beginning to neglect you job, yourself and your convictions....Am sorry am such a "manang" and boring. I need you to realize these things on your own.I guess I should be out of the picture. Manila is so hot, and so is your head.......

Before I say a lot of things in here, i guess have to end.......
Iam saying this not just because Iam mad or angry with the way you're acting.....but Iam a friend, and I try to....

Enough of the drama, am outta here...getting hot in here peeps!

My off today and tomorrow...and just what can I say???

But wow! I just wish to enjoy and dream of Baguio and forget hot headed peeps!