iam so damn tired of work, my life, my so boring everyday life since night shift all i can have as a consolation is a late brunch with my officemates for the past two days...
been meaning to talk to my bf bout a lot of things and lately it just hits me...wat if we were never really meant to be...how long can i sustain this long distance relationship we have, and if worst comes to worsts,what if we broke up and never talk again? am having a lot of fears on my mind lately, should i blame it on my sleep deprived life...my pressure at work my insecurities? wat?
been two days since i last blogged but i just dont wanna write something in here and regret it later...not that iam afraid of the consequences...am really afraid that my sweety won't understand me...or worst, I JUST DONT WANNA UNDERSTAND MYSELF(HUH????)
WAS JUST GLAD that i recieved a card from my sweety yesterday well it kinda work, through all the troubles circling in my mind....it made me feel glad that he does think of me, he went out of his way to make that card (he made it through the computer through hallmark on-line) and also wrote something in it (two-lines) so that's an OK! i know i sound unfair for doubting for thinking negative...i dunno, it's just doesnt feel so good sometimes and sometimes...it does not feel right...iam sorry sweety..but hang in there iam thinking positive as you told me the last time we talk...
maybe all i need is an assurance..how, why and when i dunno...
well work was not that good today my boss is kinda (not kinda..he was really dissapointed) with our performance...well i just know i did my best....
been two days since i felt that...sometimes, ure best was not really good enuf as a line from a song tells...hehehhe
till later....am sleepy and hungry....
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