Break...Break Down

Last week, my ex (not Pert) texted me quite unexpectedly. We didn't part good and to top it all, I vowed not to text or see him anymore. Anyways, all of a sudden during my last call last week he texted me and said "Hi". My sudden reaction was, why? Why he all of a sudden chose to surface again when we bought told ourselves...it is the end of it..including friendship. the next few messages was quite a revelation, I started texting him back on my way to Megamall and on my way home until I fell asleep for next morning's schedule.

He was the sweetest of all my boyfriends, not that am comparing but he was indeed...he called me and told me how sorry he was about a lot of things, especially that eksena at the back of PBCOM last December...I completely forgot it..sguro ung pain tlga nababwasan and if you dwell on the pain all the more it get hurts.I chose to move on and not think about him anymore, di ko n sya tnxt, even if we see each other, civil naman kme. We were great friends and i thought he was it, he was it until he lied and hurt me in the long run.

Anyways, di ko na babalikan yung pain na yun, at yung night na iniyakan ko siya sa bar in Vito Cruz, I havent spoke to him about all the pain he has caused me and it was selfish of me not to recognize or hear his pain as well.
I know I have been awful selfish to him, because he pampered me well, I didnt realized that he may in the long run grow tired understanding me and giving in. Alam ko sobra ko bait, pero kung ako sobra bait, sya super dooper!
Whatever happened to us was not a mistake, I GUESS we just tried so hard to make it work and hoping na we are right for each other after meeting the wrong ones. I guess every relationship ganun talaga, I did love him and I dunno if I have been unfair but I did...love him the way i know how.
Hay chummy ba?
He eventually told me he's not yet over with me but he's trying....and since he knew am soon leaving Pinas, he is trying hard to meet up with me again.
Vanilla frap date daw...pero friendly date lang daw, just to catch up...
I just felt sad when he texted me this;

"Feelin ko kc dati pag cnabi ko kgad lalo magiging complicated para sayo n ayaw ko sbhn mo n traitor ako.Lam mo un,? ako p namn un tao n gus2 kogagawin n ssbhn ko kgad. Ayaw ko kc un ul feel sorry kc u didnt do anything. Eh kung gago ako, gnwa ko na. Kso ganun ka ka importante, kya I kept it to myself nlng.HIRAP."
"Pero I had to gauge everything,back then!As in kaya din cguro d rin ako mapakalisa sang lugar nun.Palipat lipat basta gulo! Honestly...miss ko na ung kasama ka"

My reply was..."Im sorry, I wish you havent met me, I feel guilty"

His was "Don't, masaya ako nun...it's just I didnt try as hard to keep you".....

He called me up and he broke down..."Sorry...sorry I hurt you that night in PBCOM"

I was in the verge of crying as well, and then he said "I wish we could still have that Vanilla frap together one of these days...for old times sake..."

Am still thinking....

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Don't ever wanna feel no pain (pain)
Hoping for the sun
But it looks like rain (rain, rain, rain)
Oh, i just wanna maintain

Yeah, when you feel the pressure's on
But nevertheless
Krayzie won't fall
It's over
It's endin' here, here


Break break down............