I don't easily give up on people

Met with a former officemate yesterday, and from there I knew something from another ex officemate slash friend?
I dunno what to say....I don't even know if I will feel sorry or feel guilty that for the last two weeks I gave up on him and even felt bad that he is not responding to any of my texts and even replying to any of my message on ym. We were the kind of friends who would knew what we were feeling about something, usually eats out and go to movies after our offs..the only person who would upfront tell me how dumb Iam for loving someone who's not so worth it...two weeks ago I rcvd a virus message from him and he immedietely logged out of ym...I was so shocked and hurt..if it was him really...but he never spoke a word to any of my questions...never reacted to any of my text messages...we were laughing so hard the last day I saw him in the office and days after I would just know from our TL he was quitting.....
Hayy, what's the use of me venting out....ewan...I dunno...i just felt it was so unfair of him leaving his friends this way....clueless..until I heard his story from another person....I wished I knew how to react the friend way....but none of those moved me...I even reacted negatively bout his life these days...I just uttered.."OK...but I dunno what to say....If he has that problem..Iam sorry but Iam sorry if I don't give a big deal about it...he chose to isolate himself...not saying a word...he left..and l gave up na on him..yeah he is still a friend but am just hurt that he has to leave that way...."
Darn...last night...when I came home, I felt guilty........ I wandered how he survived the things that has been happening to him, but does he care that his friend cares..I dunno...I really dunno.
Maybe I felt bad that from the team Iam one of his closest...that he eventually chose to say something from one of our friends...but it was not it..it's him leaving anmd burdening all his worries all by himself
I texted him almost a month ago that am just around..I will listen..I just need to know if he is OK...eventually he chose to shut up..and shut us down...

I remember one time last April..we were chatting..was so honest how sad Iam...he told me cheer up..and eventually said this song is for me....

Bat your eyes girl
Be otherworldly
Count your blessings
Seduce a stranger
What's so wrong
With being happy?
Kudos to those who
See through sickness

I suggest we Learn to love ourselves
Before it's made illegal
When will we learn
When will we change
Just in time to see it
All come down

Floating in this cosmic Jacuzzi
We are like frogs
oblivious
To the water starting to boil
Now I flinch and
We all float face down

-Warning by Incubus]

Nyak...how ironic..you left without warning.....

I may have literally said I gave up on you....I dunno if I really did....
But like what I said...I don't give up on people...I don't easily give up on people
Especially friends...

You know where to reach me...