Hehehe Mushy nanaman?
Not actually....Am just trying to ask this question myself just as when Iam about to try to rest....
Well....
The first few days was okay...until I suddenly got sick on 7th day of this month. And to top it all....me and my mum entangled in a verbal tussle..well let me correct it...she got mad..uttered a lot of things that eventually hurt my so called.."being". I ended up crying in my room until I got tired...that was Wednesday last week.
Eversince then...I seldom eat....I don't want to join them in family lunch...dinner and laklakan time. But that is not the whole story...I hate the fact that she humiliated me again infront of many people and infront of my sister told how irresponsible and a loser Iam.
I wanted to say things but knowing me..I just can't. I can never answer back the very person who I thought still believed in me.
Iam again lost....and puzzled and at the same time scared...scared by the fact that just as when I was so positive about the 2008 this has been happening for days now. And to top it all..Iam getting sick but have to keep quiet about it since I dont want to be a burden.
I love my mum above anyone else..but am hurt just the same that she can't talk to me and tell me what Iam to do with my life,
Iam not mad...I just wanna be able to see a different perspective but mum really I need you to be at my back and not infront blocking my way.
Guide me and talk to me...I very well need it.
Am smiling and all but you have no idea..I sometimes dont eat to end the depression.
:) I'll be fine, I hope.
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