Too Late to Apologize

I dunno what the hell happened....one day we were just dating again yea, he was trying to win me back ang get together again but I told him that we can just be friends...he even went his way to go with me and my best friend the last time we were together.

I know this is plain stupid of me.I just dont want the doors to be totally closed between us but Iam aware I cannot trust him much though.

There were times I would certainly miss him yet my head would just tell me to let go.I honestly felt he was a good friend but to be his girlfriend is a bad decision.

After Sagada, he texted me...wanting to see me since I have been away from Manila for 5 days...he even wantto fetch me on the bus station the time Iam about to head to Manila. That's time I finally decided to let go and not to meet up with him anymore. I finally got the nerves to tell him I cannot love him anymore. No more chances. End of story. Period.

I felt bad...because I know he was indeed sorry. But the mere fact that he cheated wouldnt change anything.He did something and he should be responsible for the risks he chose. Even I know how sorry he was...I cannot help but remember it...the more I think about it the more hurt Iam. And it is something that I definitely wont be ableto endure for the longest time.

That night he emailed me a really long letter.Beacause I told him I wouldnt like him to tect me anymore, call me or even visit me in the house

..I cant help but read it everytime I get online...

" I know we had the best of times,and sometimes we end up bullying each other...the time I chose to do the not so good....was the time I couldnt figure out what I wanna do and what I was to be expected.

I did not cheat on you because I dont love you...I did that because I was lost and just human...such a lame excuse. But if I could turn back time, I wish I did not have to do it.

I wanted you to know how sorry Iam...Sana napatawad mo na ko sa lahat.

My mum liked you so much...and I do as well...sobra and I hope you felt in. Iam just too stupid to let you go.

Thanks sa lahat...I will miss everything about you...Tagaytay will be remembered because it is where I saw your sweetest smile after crying immensely. I will always love toffee nut and vanilla frap at Starbucks because it is my peace offering to you whenver we have some lousy tampuhans....driving from south to your place is just an easy ride...kse am heading to my one great love.Also, I will miss our food trips....and your laugh...your hands on mine....the way I look at you when you're asleep on our way home from Tagaytay.

I just want you to know..iam gonna miss you so much.

Thinking about it...now just makes me sad....

I just hope one day you'll forgive me.

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And then.....I heard this song....

Wtf...akmang -akma!!!!

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

that it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new - yeah
I loved you with the a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
I'm sorry like an angel
heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late whoaa ohhh...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holding on your rope, got me ten feet... off the ground

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I'll be good..soon!

:)