Deepress mode...Yes Iam! Dammit!!!

drunk and wasted and after that great cry out splurge at a cr duing the team's gimmick
tryin to smile...but the eyes..tells all...trying to get that old feeling again
i know...i should be over it


I refused to be miserable,yet for a day or two and yes till now, in a way, i have been...and i know i shouldnt be feeling this way, not to one person who is selfish and so self centered...the thing is, i loved the person in the truest sense of the word...and I thought we will straighten things in a good way...nope we were not talkin about reconciliation or getting back together..we were talking about the possibility of being civil and being friends...i was caught unaware when he came to see me and have her gf along...so hurt that I was unprepared to react normally..maybe i was not expecting he will be bringing her..how bobo!hahah
I know...its been so long...im just hurt, everything is just a pattern..sometimes i feel there is something wrong with me...nyways,it has been my off since sunday..had vl and wont be back to work till tom nyt...im just home,whining,relaxing, broke, eating and doing movie marathon..came across Drew Barrymore's and Hugh Grant's movie, their song woke me up on my phone...love the lyrics, and again made me mushy..and hopeful....and so senti
Way Back to love??? yea,still hopeful.....

I’ve been living with a shadow overhead

I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

I’ve been lonely for so long

Trapped in the past,

I just can’t seem to move on
I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

Just in case I ever need em again someday

I’ve been setting aside time

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can’t make it through without a way back into love

Oh oh oh
I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine

I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs

I know that it’s out there

There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light

Not just somebody just to get me throught the night

I could use some direction

And I’m open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can’t make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again

I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real

Or if anybody feels the way I feel

I need inspiration

Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can’t make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you

I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do

And if you help me to start again

You know that I’ll be there for you in the end