it's just i know am so...grouchy...and antsy and so..so just nowhere caught in the middle....a lot of things has happened...and rather than being miserable about something or someone...i tried to deal with it by working so freaking hard...and imagine this...me just getting 3 hr sleep for the last 2 weeks..which is a big consolation for me..i get out of work by 11:15...sometimes past 12 if i get a long call, and head up to taft avenue all the way fr makati to catch my 1pm class...and my day will end by past 6..and head home by past 7...eat dinner if i still have the strength to munch a few bite...clean my body and head on my comfy bed by 8 or before 8...and sleep till 12 or 1...head to work again...by 2:15...this has been my routine for 2 weeks now...and i dunno how the hell am survivin...right now am sick with colds and coughing like my 2 dogs...yet am still workin...i dunno if i need to do this or i really enjoy doing this to myself just to forget my misery...i know am so babaw to be feelin this way...but it's not about him...really not about him...i guess it is really about me after all....am not saying that it was my fault why i always end up being cheated..i know i just loved so immensely to the point that i could not love myself back the way i need to be....it's just becoming a trend..and i wish i could just try to picture the real person vowing theri love for me...telling me how grateful they are for having me in their lives...until...they just grew tired...and find another next please.....
am so tired..but i loved what im feeling right now...i mean it gives me the comfort to be able to try to atleast forget about him...and not just him...but all the others who grew tired of me and found solace in other people...so unfair i know...but i wanna know why things like this happens...i know shit happens...
i just wanna be able to seek what i want...and im getting there....things are not really comfy at the side but im just happy that....
im still here...blogging..whining....
yea ryt
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