just wanting me to matter

mushy me again..can't help imagining what would my last day at work be. lately i have these casual conversations at work, and tellin how the hell i came out with that decision and i can't help but say...i just have to do it....iam tired and i think it's about time that i really move on.
i know life will be tougher, new beginnings which i dont even know what really to expect...though i know it will be harder and lots of expectations....
things just comes in suprises at times like my near resignation on my company in a few days...i have been with the same company for over two years and secretly, well not anymore been applying to jobs since early last month and last week got offered a job and accepted it.
but sometimes it really stucks me thinking how i gave up my being regular in the job and been with the same people, same campaign for over two years and just in an instant changing lanes to an entirely different setting. i know i just have to do it....otherwise...what is up for me...
i know call center wont be my lifetime carreer.I just thought that the oppurtunity that comes wont always be there all the time. i have been in the backseat my entire stay in the company iam with, though i dont hate to be the small fish in the company i also dont mind being the small fish in the big pond where i will be in 2 weeks.
people around me i know doubts my decision.oi know my family included at the back of their minds thinks that what i decide to isnt that great idea,but iam positive about this....if it doesnt work, it wont. but atleast i tried...and the chance of getting there and proving my worth is such a nice thing to look forward to.
iam not popular in the company, maybe iam in a way for being one of the oldest in the batch, being one of the pioneer call center agents to date in the office.sometimes i dont know if it is something that i should be proud about,or be ashamed of.
what iam saying is....i want to be noticed.i know am good, i know i have the skills, and yes i know i have the brains.iam such a dedicated person when i work and so what if iam sick but am totally responsible to not even notice if iam sick yet i still go to work.
i dont mind really starting all over agin if that's the case.
i just want me to matter.
the thing that i seldom felt in my soon to be ex-employer.

well that's it.
now am talking.