ON CHRISTMAS EVE

It's christmas eve tonight, though am not excited...it just gives me some memories that i dont realize...that it's been a year since we freaking called it quits...actually, it wasnt yet that formal...but i was sensing these days last year that me and my ex were bound to separate and really call it quits.

I even recorded the call we had...i was telling him how doubtful i was with the relationship...that he isnt really taking care of me..that he doesnt care about me at all...and he denied those allegations, he would tell me, it has been like a while that he has been busy and that i should understand.

I try to..i tried a lot of times to really tell myself that maybe am just making it hard for him. i know i sometimes so hard and not listen to his reasons...

Now why am I bringing back all those things..i just remembered, I havent told anyone not even my closest friends what was our last conversation before I decided that...IT'S OVER, really over.

Nah, am not crying my heart out now, to think it's been a year...I am just sad of the thought that the break-up and the problem surfaced during christmas season....

Talk about timing...dude!

Anyways, happy holidays, enjoy it!

I will try to smile and forget bout the not so good christmas last year.....