i wish i have all the answers

yesterday in my really desperate way to sleep, i end up having the song love moves (as rendered by nina) and i love you goodbye (also the version of nina) repetitively popping on both my ear lobes. yes, it has been almost a week now that i couldn't try to sleep or sleep off without my discman on. i dunno if it is of help or just my relentless effort to be the old sentimental me. maybe. or maybe not.

i have this moodish thing goin again on myself. good thing i haven't been really talking too much or converse with freinds, or else, i may end up confronting them or arguing bout something, usually petty. i just shrug the thought, i know i can be so quiet but pretty dangerous when iam not really in the mood.

i wanted to have that one last cry yesterday, although i know i cannot promise myself that it will be my last cry, but the song just kinda moved me, or it kinda told me something in my innerself that hey girl, i should move on...but how, what will i do afterwards, iamm just pretty disgusted bout a lot of things, and most of all...him.

it's been more than 6 mos since our break-up but i just cannot ponder thoughts that would help me to try to atleast accept things and undersatnd it the very least. why would it be it has always been a human nature to just drop you off like a hot potato when things just dont seem to work out the way you want them to be. why don't we just talk bout it first and just try to get things together?

here iam again sappy and all, and trying to figure out things and question and be sentimental again....

anyways, am outta here....

till laterz!