whenever, whatever, whoever.....

am actually in this state where i dont know really what to do, or am i really making sense, or if i just feel happy because i wanna pretend that iam happy....but i just realized that iam not really happy...am not really content and all but i just feel like the world is too mush to bear for me....

or am i just having one of these days.....

well, yesterday i went home with my sis crying coz my parents had again one of these fights..and i really really was not in the mood to ask her why. i know and iam sure, it's just a petty thing, like always. i went straight ahead in my room, and lie down but i just cant sleep, though am tired and wasted...i cant help but think....what a life i have, i mean i always get affected with these things, am wondering why do they have to do these to us, to me, especially...am so tired to dwell on these problems, to even try to ask them why.

i just dont want them to be lonely and dwell on those....