i dont understand myself lately...am i insane or something????

i wish i can better understand this ordeal of mine. sometimes i just think of something and then again i think bout him again, and i just don't understand really why he is still in my head.....
i know i have to let go of him and all the pain and just move on, and have a life and just enjoy life and it's complexities, it's lessons.but i end up just having sleepless nights (day that is as iam a day sleeper), i am again skipping meals but still gaining weight. i have no goals or plans or whatever...am just plainly one of those people who just live the day as it is...eh ano kung ano mangyari...bahala na...

actually this is not me really, am a fighter, i believe iam, but i just can't get enough of the pain he has brought me...bitter pa din pala ako, till now

i dont have to feel this way i know...but i dont understand still.

iam a fighter i know, i cry easily but i know i have a stronger side, i look for better answers to all these miseries....but why lately.....iam just so sad bout all these things....

either iam just so sad bout these and iam not yet over him....

or iam still crazy bout him....

no, insanely...devoted...

or iam just palinly insane...

hehe watever....

pack shet!