just came fr my day off, and now am wanting days to be faster so that i can have my off agen.hahaha.nyways wat i did was some kind of a new thingy after my break up..went out with a good frend, but hey it's not wat u think, we just talked, ate and rekindled the good ol days...we have been friends for more than 3 years now, he is nice, he is so thoughtful, but prob is, there is no spark....there have been lots of dead airs, and i dont like that, i tried so hard to get to know him better, and to look at him in a different way other than being a good friend, i wanted to give him a chance....but to be fair to me, and also to him, i guess, there's just no spark......i guess he got the picture, and it was nice of him still to understand me....thanks...(if u'r e readin)ure nice and all....but i dont deserve u, u dont deserve me...but we're cool frends ryt????
well that was thursday....and come friday, went to meet my gurl frendz for a dinner and a coffee at starbucks, but first went to see my college frend at sm manila where we ate pizza(makes me hungry this time)ANYWAYS.... we roam around, was telling her bout my bout with dis damn heartache for the past almost 2 freaking months!!!! was nearly crying, on the verge of it, when i think about the days, those happy days, the sweet things he told me and our plans....we were supposed to tie the knot or so he tells me).....i was so much missin my 2 cuz that i treated like my own and we were chatting that time when i told him that i kinda miss my kewl cuz....and then he gave me this phone call and he said...you and i should start making a family....it's kinda corny but it meant a lot he was so sure that we are gonna grow old together, spend our growing up years together build a life together, a family and have lots of time knowing each other....he was dead set to have a life together...forever, until now....
i stopped getting mushy as pam told me to let go, not to acquiant with such mushy thoughts and sweet things...but i just can't really help it...we did not have a problem, we did not talk about anything, it was just a very long dead air...until he broke that fucking news (excuse the word!!) welli dont wanna go on details and cry about it on a sunday morning, i just want to feel ok, although not in the real sense of the word...i just want to be ok and shed on some unwanted thoughts if i may....
after that 2 hour roaming around sm manila, have a 7pm appointment with mah ohter 2 gurlfrends...lanny and marie, both i knew from my present company but went different workplaces 6 mos after (both of them)...lany is also working in a call center somewhere here in makati...and marie as a document specialist in a reputable agency also in here in mkti.
i was damn excited seeing them, we have this habit of just talking over coffee, or a meal and just laugh about anything, including our respective lovelifes!!!! hahaha...well good for marie, she is happily married, she has found her true love and significant other...they are actually a cute pair and look good together!!! now before i get inggit we ate at nearby jollibbee,(near her office) and waited for lanny who texted us that she is going to be a little late.....understandable, she was sleeping the whole day and has to catch up with her 10pm sked for that night's work...
after that dinner at jollibee we went to starbucks along ayala ave, across lkg tower...and decided to have some coffee...i got myself a coffee jelly and a brownie...sat witht them and talked about the good ol days when we were starting the job we had barely 2 years ago...it was all our very first venture working in a call center....
between us three, i wanted to get out of the job right away esp when youre being pressured and all....i hate the pressure, and the telemarketing, and the lies...i thought wasnt gonna last any longer..but look at me...am going to be in this office for almost 2 yrs now (2 yrs in june)....maybe cant leave the pay and the frends..hahaha wateva!!!
i was really enjoying evrything, these are the friends i missed hanging out with, iam not saying that the friends i have right now in office arent just as great but marie and lanny were my batchmates, we learned together at work, we manage to spill out anything that is so hard to talk about....(such as u know what...heheheh)..i can say i was really myself when i was running out of confidence and determination...
i asked them that i hope that gimmick nyt won't be the last one for all of us we were planning for the next time and iam looking forward to it...
was great having coffee and pigging out with mah gurlfrendz...but it is just great talking and conversing and getting to know more of we missed about each other when work and the likes deprives us from seeing each other...
im just glad i went to see them....never mind if i did not do my laundry...
haha
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