Lately iam so sad all of a sudden, there are times that even if Iam in a middle of something, I will pause on some thoughts and just feel sad, sometimes, I just cry all of a sudden and feel so bad....
I don't know why, perhaps I just feel bad for being so hard on myself that I end up feeling so low and so useless...at work, at home at my being a friend, a girlfriend to my boyfriend....evrything is just not working right as i can see.
i dunno, maybe I am just thinking so negative,maybe its just something that I create on my mind, frankly, I dont understand what's wrong with me. am so dissatisfied with what Im going through..and I dont know what i'll do and what I really really want!
I have been texting my bf always and telling him how Im feeling, and he keeps on telling me to be happy and be strong, sometimes i ask myself, what will make me happy....
How in the hell am I here...what is my purpose in this life that Iam living, how will I be able to cope up with things that are quite difficult.
How will my life would be 3, 4 ..5 years fr now with the life Iam getting and living at present. Why is my bf so far far away that i could not get to hold his hand and hug him whenever i feel so low and sad.
why did I finish my studies as a Physical therapist and end up being a Telemarketer?
How will I be able to live my life on my own if i am so afraid to leave my family here knowing Iam the one guiding my sis and my parents...
Lame excuses.....that is all I have and that is what stopping me from doing what I could have done.
Im just ranting,good thing sweety is always there to comfort me...
love you,it has been nice that you are in my life.
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