I am again lazy today on my way to work, good thing I wasn't late or anything. I just gave a thought on my life right now, I feel so down since yesterday, there were times I would just cry and I'd be bit suprise why tears start spurting in my eyes...crazy me!
I had a brief chat at yahoo with my good friend madcatz and I was telling him I was so lonely, I feel bad but it's not bout something that is because of someone or something...it is from within. I told him I was trying to tell myself that I'd quit my job right now, but of course I'm just telling this...it's so hard to be jobless and be a bum in manila...
being a bum is out of the question...just being comfortable is my issue here..sometimes i think that i can never be satisfied with a lot of things, with my life, my work, my style,my whole life. Almost all my life I always take the back seat, I always say ok when I really mean is...Goodness gracious!!! NO!
Sometimes I wanna know how to really be mad and say things what's on my mind. but I wasn't brought up that way,I always see the brighter side of things, then I just realized that I was more pleasing other people and conditions more of myself.and it's kinda unfair....kinda....no it is really unfair.
In a few weeks i'll be a year older and I can't help but notice that I havent been doin anything with my life because I wanted to please everyone.I always change my mind in the hope that everything is fine with everyone.
Well whatever is it that I'm feelin right now I hope it will be in a positive way..i don't wanna rant...who wants to be sad about somethin????