there's gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me

Just married

2011-08-28T06:37:00.000+08:00

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This is How it Feels

2009-08-22T03:25:00.002+08:00

I miss Pinas..and the the family and friends I left behind :(

Now I know what homesickness means....

Miss you all...just saying it makes me cry :(

Leaving in 7 days

2009-05-26T08:33:00.002+08:00

After all the hardwork, tears, and agony of waiting for 5 months....I finally got hold of my visa!!!!

Am leaving 7 days from now....off to London woohoooo

Thank you to everyone who prayed for me and helped me all throughout...especially to my Mom who has been my source of strength and determination...

God it Hurts

2009-04-30T15:07:00.000+08:00

After losing my Dad six months ago, yesterday my Grandpa on my mom's side died on his bed due to complications of Buerger's disease, he was 86. A day before his passing, i couldn't sleep, and I kept thinking a lot but cannot do anything. I have been praying that he won't have a hard time, I know it is painful on his end if I can do something about it, I wish I could ease it.
Sometimes the ordeal of this tests, is weakening me, I have always been positive of things and all, but on the other end you are only human and you question things and ask why. My Grandpa is so nice, and was so helpful, and I could never remember if he ever spanked us while we were kids, he just pinched our ears and that's it...that pinch did not even hurt.
I will miss the person who he is, at the time of his death, he has trouble recognizing everyone, but that doesn't matter, I wouldn't forget how he made us all wanted, and important and loved.
Everything must come to an end I know, but it hurts, God it hurts.

I couldn't sleep thinking bout him, and missing my Dad as well.

I came across this poem, and it felt like it talked to me;

God it hurts

I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I Know'
I said 'God I cry alot'
And God said 'That's why I gave you tears'
I said 'God I get so depressed'
And God said 'That why I gave you sunshine'
I said god I feel Alone'
And god said 'That's why I gave you loved ones'
I said 'god my loved one is dead'
And God said'I watched mine nailed to the cross'
I said God 'Where are they? '
And God said 'Mine is on my right and yours is in the light.
I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I know'

by Amy Louise Kerswell

God it hurts, but I know everything will be OK...

~In Memoriam~
Amado C. Aguila
August 4, 1922- April 29,2009

Reflection 101

2009-04-09T17:52:00.004+08:00

Reflection : according to wikipedia....
* Introspection, contemplation on one-self (opposite of extrospection)
* Human self-reflection, the process of thoughtful meditation or rumination
Hmm, I began to think, reflection is also a state wherein you need to look back and wander, have you made the right choices, and do these choices made you better, or bad? Or did you just let the moments pass by and don't care???
I am not a religious person but every year when Lenten season is here, this gives me the chance to reflect, repent and look back....
This blog entry is inspired by the fact that I realized things can turn from good, to better,then best, and then....you hit the rock bottom...I have felt that the last 6 months of my life...and believe me, it doesn't feel good..it doesn't.

A few years ago, I have made the right choice, I got a job, I got everything I need.Every single thing for me, is just in a spark,and I felt so good, it felt so right, I can be crazy but still stood to my grounds.
But sometimes, we have to learn things the hard way, am no exception.

What am saying is, I know I did wrong, I did not so good, but I clinged to God.

Lately, I am missing Tatay again, I couldn't function well, cause I have been talking to God, and asked him, why he made my Dad go away just when am ready to do things for myself and prove to him that I can do it? Yes, for many weeks, I refused to pray, I am in the church because my dad was there, but after the wake, and the burial, I refused to go to church.

Human nature,I know, usually when tragedy surfaces, we blame God, not knowing, things happen for a reason, and that it is my dad's fate that he expired that October morning. After he was buried, i was clueless, I resigned 2 months earlier, was about to leave for UK, but things turned, sour, and I may need to postpone it.

I know am not perfect, am not even a regular church goer, but I believe in God, I believe that we are all bound for something or somewhere, as long as we work hard for it and trust ourselves, and trust God, and willingly pray for everything.

Am still clueless, am still around, am still dreaming, am still hoping, after the not so good, and not so bad, things just get better. I know, everything happens for a reason, and I am again reminded how God conspires my world, I am blessed with a family that understands my mood swings, a mom that is my strength and my inspiration, a brother who doesn't say much but willing to do much, a diko, who makes me laugh with his humor, a sister who doesn't get tired of me,aunts who are oh so generous, uncles, who just uplifts me....a dad that is always in my heart. friends, they may not be physically around but, I know I have True friends....

This Lenten season, we may have headed to the beach, went somewhere cooler, enjoyed ourselves and gave ourselves a break, but let us be reminded, to take time to reflect, repent and remember, God understands....He always understands. Be thankful for the blessings, but be more thankful for the trials, these things, makes us stronger. Believe me....

God Bless us all!

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Handwritting Analysis

2009-04-05T19:55:00.000+08:00

Official Handwriting Analysis - Personality Report

This personality profile is based on the writing of Dee Vitto created at the website: Handwriting Wizard.com - Handwriting University's Official automated personality report creator based on standardized basic personality traits as taught through Handwriting University's Certification Level Program.

Dee is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Dee will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Dee an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Dee is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Dee is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Dee doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Dee will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Dee believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Dee will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Dee has a desire for attention. People around Dee will notice this need. She may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on her own character.

Dee has an over-awareness of self. She often feels self-conscious. She fears ridicule, therefore she is careful not to place herself in a position to receive any ridicule. She wonders what people will think if she acts in a certain manner. When encountering a new group of people, Dee may stay on the sidelines until she has the people categorized, or she may behave in a "positive attention getting" manner to assure people think good thoughts about her from the start.

In the sales profession, this self-consciousness is called "call reluctance". They take the word "no" as a personal criticism. Therefore, there is an internal struggle when performing this type of work. Although this person may be a great salesperson, she still feels insecurity. She will perform better if someone else is with her because the fear of ridicule from her peers is far greater than the fear of ridicule from her clients. Many times this type of person becomes a sales trainer, because when she is training, she doesn't have to put herself in a position of being told "no" as often as the salesmen do.

In reference to Dee's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Dee slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Dee can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Dee's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Dee that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Dee also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Dee is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Dee's self-concept is artificially low. Dee will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Dee to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Dee is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Dee will take action on her thoughts. She is positive that her views are correct for her. She has the ability to seem as if she is positively correct when answering a question, even if she does not have the slightest idea of the answer. Dee displays a self-confidence that makes everyone else sure she is correct. She is positive of her own views, but not necessarily stubborn.

Dee is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. She works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps her from success. Often, Dee changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes she changes because she feels she needs a different challenge. Dee feels dejected. This feeling relates to her failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. She must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from her or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change her life.

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2009-04-02T21:19:00.001+08:00

Wala kang makukuhang bago kung hindi ka bibitiw sa luma.

OO nga naman, makes sense....

Kaso...matigas talaga, ang ulo ko...it's all coming back to me..syet!

Bad Customer Service Does Not Deserve your Angst you Foo!

2009-03-24T20:06:00.002+08:00

Just watched Boyet Fajardo on TV, today, and how sorry he is to the cashier whom he asked to kneel to apologize after having some incidence at the duty free. actually i did'nt know that this incident happened last march 13, (friday the 13th) and after recieving a message about this on my friendster...this has been much talk about on blogs, and a youtube/cctv stand witness to what transpired that fateful friday night....
Allow me to repost that said message....

> Who is BOYET FAJARDO???
>
> On Sept. 1, 1980, he opened his first shop on Banaue street in Quezon City as a bid to join the big names in the made-to-order industry at 17 and a college sophomore (at UST, where he was majoring in Fine Arts). Boyet Fajardo believed that he had what it takes to make it in fashion alongside the more established names like Ben Farrales.
>
> Today, Boyet is one of the biggest names in RTW. His Boyet Fajardo line is carried in all Robinsons stores—there are about 20 of them all over Metro Manila and in the provinces—and the Landmark. Since making the big shift from couture clothes to RTW
>
> Boyet Fajardo can truly be called a success. He has become both an artistic and financial success. In fact, he recently had his new office-cum-residence located in Valle Verde, officially blessed. The house, which has a large garden, is doted with Boyet’a favorite antiques and paintings. He also recently bought a house in nearby Acropolis, which was blessed on Nov. 28, a blessing that was attended by many of Boyet’s longtime clients and friends.
>
> He has truly come a long way…..
>
> Well that is how he was, till we came across and saw how far his success has made him.
>
> Last March 13, 2009, a Friday the 13th, (specially for the store people of Duty Free Phils. Fiestamall in Paranaque ( just beside NAIA 1)
>
> A line at the cashiers… We saw a customer at the top of his voice berating the cashiers and managers of duty free for, by his accounts, messing around with him. It was about a credit card purchase that the cashier (who we heard was just a casual employee) was kindly asking for the irate customer's other ID’s to vouch the legit owner of the credit card which is also “unsigned”, a normal operating procedure when shopping there to avoid misuse of those with con minds.
>
> He might have thought a celebrated person like he is. with all his accolades and fame has gone unrecognized by this cashier person. A new worker who is carefully doing his job. A job he is trained to do. Tsk tsk tsk…
>
> While Store Managers and officers were sought to appease the matter, explaining to him that it is all included as a standard operating procedure in credit card payment for the safety, not only for the company but also his own. Ignoring all this, he pulled out his phone and threatened to call on high positioned people whom he allegedly knew, to seem to us like do a power-play and make these people realize how important he is.. he went on using words like “leche kayo, di nyo ko kilala? AKO SI BOYET FAJARDO! AT Itong P..I.. NA BABAENG ITO, (pointing to a lady officer) at ang baklang ito (pointing to the cashier) ay walang kwentang mga tao! I want them fired!!!
>
> His yelling and berating went on and on, he cannot calm down and as he appeared to have bloodshot eyes, like that of a drunk person and or under an influence. He goes on to say, that only if the cashier kneel down before him and/or allow him to freely slap the persons face, may he get satisfied!!!
>
> AND, you know what happened next….the ill-fated cashier, with all the onlookers including us watching, stand down and just simply gave in to probably he thought would end the matter, so crying in shame he slowly knelt down and apologize (for actually doing his job) before this self proclaimed GOD…. No slapping was made to the cashier’s face but the incident landed a harsher and reverberating sound to the faces of the lesser people of this society.
>
> Go on let us patronize Mr. Boyet Fajardo's products and services and let us give him more money, to make him more powerful, affluent and comfortable to do such awful discrimination and victimize the underprivileged over and over and over again...

Lemme share as well the famous video roaming around, we need no audio or hear what he was saying in here, the mere fact that he asked the cashier to kneel down for him to accept his apology is already an indication how inhuman his actuations are.

Mr. Fajardo, you are not God.

What goes around comes around....suffer the consequences you deserve.

My Emo Thought of the Day.....

2009-03-21T11:45:00.000+08:00

All About Dee

2009-03-18T19:48:00.000+08:00

Please leave me one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember. Don't send a message to my inbox, leave a comment here.

Next, re-post this in your notes and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually nice to see all the responses.

I just thought it would be interesting to see what pops into your mind when asked this question :) Please try it!!! This really is going to be interesting. :)

I thought of you today

2009-03-10T19:20:00.000+08:00

Am so full of problems around me, yet I began to think of the friends who came in and out of my life, am bumming around yet I still chose to communicate with a very few honest and true ones.

I wish I could just be a text away and just be present on inuman sessions, Tagaytay trip, EK trip and enjoy the company, chat a lot with the nosey conversations, and be mean to people we hate just by simply talking bout them...hahah

But I can't.

All I can do right now is just go trip down memory lane..and look at pictures, imagine I'm with you, and having fun till whenever...

I miss you all...
I wish you miss me that much as well...
Well...a little missing will be appreciated...

Drama!!!!

Patchmaker

2009-03-09T20:08:00.000+08:00

I love you without knowing how,
or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly,
without complexities or pride;

so I love you because I know no other way
than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

-Paulo Neruda

Watched Patch Adams today.........sniff....

I just wish one day I'll find my Patchmaker....
one who will just cover all the wounds of my heart, and just treat me right and love me period...
love that is selfless and true and forever.....
duh
Where thou art?.....I dunno

ASA!!!
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Nag iinarte lang ako, or I may be in a way meaning the announcement haha!
Announcement,,,well who doesnt like the idea of finding our significant other? Pity party ba to? Officially today am the only one single in the family which means napagiiwanan n talaga ako..choosy ba ako? Or talagang bound for singlehood ang beauty (?) ko hahah!
Ayh..yoko na maging mushy...
I missed the Eheads concert 2 days ago..currently watching their documentary on TV...so, bye for now.....

El Bimbo mode dudes!

I wanna talk to you

2009-03-07T22:01:00.003+08:00

While everyone of my friends are prolly enjoying Eheads' last set at MOA, I came home tonight with a heavy heart and puffy eyes. I just came from Heart Center and visited my Granpa on Mom's side, he has Buerger's Disease, inflammation of the blood vessels secondary to cigarrette smoking...
Given, my Grandpa is a smoker, well make that heavy smoker...that even if he has been suffering from stroke since the 90's, he still, yes smokes. Last week got a call from my aunt, saying he has a swollen leg, and a violet like extremity, doctor has checked him and said he is suffering from Buerger's disease, being a PT grad, told them to get a second opinion, told them ,usually people from ages 25-40's suffer from this disease, my Grandpa is 86.
I was telling them if the symptoms don't improve to have him checked here in Manila, as it is a very dangerous disease, if not controlled, will lead to blood infection or sepsis which is fatal. My Grandpa has been complaining of enormous pain, just hearing that from my uncle and aunts is truly heartbreaking.
The family decided to send him to Manila, we could'nt find an ambulance to have him travel straight to Heart Center where his doctor is situated.So late noon yesterday he was admitted to the hospital...no clue yet on what is the next step...
We recieve a call from my uncle this afternoon telling us that my Lolo will be operated, I was distraught, and puzzled, operation could mean, either, cleaning the veins, or wounds if he has, or amputation, but I didn't blurt it out on my Mom. My Mom actually asked me to accompany her to the hospital, I was hesitant, the last time I was in the hospital, around more than 5 months ago, was when I saw how my father died before my eyes. I wanted to back out but I know my Mom needs me.
So I found myself, hailing a cab with her, but I was fervently praying that it should not be something so serious, that am thinking, I think my Lolo is too old for somthing major, but am still hopeful at the back of my mind..I was still thinking there could be other way.
On the 4th floor where my Lolo is admitted, the doctor and some more doctors coming in, was checking out my Lolo, and then the head doctor, gathered us, family, and brought the news. He was drawing something on a piece of paper,to explain it further, I recognized he was drawing the main vessels of the lower extremity, he explained the possible solutions, but it gave us the clearer picture by saying the only way to stop the disease from spreading is AMPUTATION....
Oh no!I can see how my aunts and uncles reacted, my Uncle Orlie, who is a nurse, thinks, it should be done right away, my Aunt as well, and me...but on second thought, I realized, will my Lolo handle it, and will he be able to accept the ordeal? I was crying and asking why are those the things that can stop it, and why now when he is 86? I was definitely thinking and most of the time, I just cannot say anything...you want to save him, you want him to be pain free...yet after the surgery will he be able to agonize the pain of being handicap, at his time and age.
The family called my Uncle in the States, and then called my Lolo's sister in Pangasinan...we think it is best to ask them so that we can atleast ask them what's best.
This has got to be the toughest ordeal, crisis , problem we had so far as a family...but we asked the doctors to ask my Lolo, though at times, not coordinated managed to tell doctors that he will study the circumstances, when one doctor managed to tell him the worst case scenario...he said, NO way, he doesn't want to undergo the knife and deal with his disease...
Am so..sad, hurt, undefined actually, it took a lot of tests to actually pinpoint what needs to eb done next but with all due respect, the last say should we be on my Lolo.
It is heart wrenching seeing him undergo the pain...
He is 86, and i don't think he deserves more pain and agony.
He is such a good person that I actually don't want him to experience day by day with hardship...
I wanna talk to any of my friends, and I wanted to just cry out and whine and say what the heck, am not totally over with my Dad's passing and now this...
But I am not blaming God, or blaming my fate..I just want to complain, and tell how my Mom cried again after coming home, how she doesn't want to deal with my Grandpa's pain coz all the more she remembers how my Dad died last October.
How all of us in the hospital just don't wanna talk about how will he become in a few days or weeks...
How I just wanna be strong for my Mom and the family in this time of crisis.
But how weak I am really on the inside...how I burst out infront of our dog Schumi the moment I went in my room.
How, I wish I could do something to ease the pain...yet am helpless..
Am sorry for whining...

I just want to talk....to you...

Thanks, I feel a lot better...
Please pray for my Lolo...that his remaining days will be comfortable and meaningful
Love you Lolo....

Farewell Master Rapper

2009-03-06T08:21:00.000+08:00

RIP Francis M
A music legend who made me more proud being a true blooded Filipino via "Mga Kababayan Ko"
Bilib tlaga ako sau Kiko...
Rest in Peace

Flickr Me

2009-03-01T18:12:00.004+08:00

The concept:
a. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search.
b. Using only the first page, pick an image.
c. Copy and paste the html into your blog or Flickr stream. Or use the Mosaic Maker at fd’s Flickr Toys.

1. What is your first name? Diana
2. What is your favorite food? Fried Chicken
3. What high school did you go to? Special Science High School
4. What is your favorite color? Blue
5. Who is your celebrity crush? Brad Pitt
6. Favorite drink? Vanilla Frap from starbucks
7. Dream vacation? Paris, France
8. Favorite dessert? Ice Cream
9. What you want to be when you grow up? Super Model Hahaha
10. What do you love most in life? Living itself
11. One Word to describe you. Single
12. Looked up your flickr name and see what pops up. My flickr name is dyannesky

1. The Saddest Fairy Tale: Ten years without Diana, who passed away on 31 August 1997, 2. Food is Like a Loving Touch..., 3. Memory Map - Cambridge, 4. The Eye at Night, 5. Brad Pitt Close-Up, 6. got up on the wrong side of life today, 7. try to reach the top., 8. candy pop land, 9. Secrets, 10. House nestled in Vineyard, 11. London Underground Life Color - December 31, 2007, 12. _dYaNnESkY_014[1]

Sober Days

2009-03-01T13:42:00.000+08:00

Have spend a drinking spree with CVG friends last week and I just miss those days when we were complete, when we did not have a clue that there will be this one day though we hate it, we won't be together anymore because of new things that may come in our life..some opted to go abroad, some wanted a career out of the call center, some opted to study first, some went to another call center, some just chose to be quiet on their own world, but whatever their reason is, I refuse to put away the memories we had, especially those sober days, those days we chose to get wild and be drunk not because for the heck of it, but for trying to have fun after the stressful shift.
I was trying to delete some old pics, not because I wanted to forget it but to cut down on memory on the PC, but these pics reminded me how dearly those beer drinking spree and those camaraderie are missed.
I dearly miss you peeps, Ilustrados, Team Gayem, whatever you may call it, I just can't stop believing we had those fun before, how we sometimes are careless about not controlling what we drink, and how much always people around us think we're crazy, well we are....
There are a lot of memories so good to go back into....
I wish we could all see each other again....
:)

Absolut

2009-02-22T16:42:00.000+08:00

Saturday Night with CVG friends

Plus these

and these

is Absolutely fun.....

Hayy miss them but it was absolutely nice seeing them that I went home 7am in the morning!!!!!

Chasing Pavements

2009-02-20T21:39:00.001+08:00

I keep on playing Chasing Pavements on the computer, aside form the fact that the singer Adele, won in the Grammys, it again made me like the song, it has been one of my fave last year, well in a way, it brought back again the memories, it coincidentally was the song beaming on the radio, when my ex came back from the States last year, even blogged about the song and how I felt (you can view it here) thus again nakakarelate.

Due to this senti mode again, I tried to find out what is the meaning behind the song; ain't it strange, chasing pavements? Chasing, well, literally means, to run after, to look after, pero pavement? Have no idea why she put the pavements, heheh...anyways, I googled the song and according to some, these are the meanings :

Slang term used for the act of specifically searching for a partner with whom to engage in either rimming, frosting or other scat related activities. The term 'pavements' is used as a euphemism for buttocks.

Huwaat! Chasing buttocks? Hehehe..but actually Adele said naman that....

While in some sects it carries that meaning, in the song by the British artist Adele, it most definitely has NO sexual meaning of any kind. Because of the incorrectly assigned meaning, some stations have pulled the song from the air but Adele herself has stated that the song has a much more deeper meaning:

"Some weirdo on the Net wrote that 'Chasing Pavements' was about being gay, which isn't true at all," [Adele] said.

"Because of that some radio stations in the States wouldn't play it. The guy wrote it on Urban Dictionary, which I've used for years, and 'chasing pavements' was never on there before.[...]

The song "Chasing Pavements" refers to an incident that occurred at 6AM one day after a fight with that person during which Adele was running down the street alone. She thought to herself "What you're chasing is you're chasing an empty pavement."

(Article used from digitalspy.co.uk)

Relieved that it's not about getting gaga over some buttocks ehehe...

Well, again nakakarelate nanaman ako, but actually am not chasing after him ano, it's just I thought after the gf found out that he is cheating..akala ko end of it..am not happy about it, in a way, I felt sorry that he is doing it again, but again I found out, they ironed things, like heyy, the gurl does love her and no matter how much he is fooling aorund, she is much willing to accept him.

Damn ang guapo nman nya, he is not breaking the habit...yet the gf does love her...

Before, me chasing him,him chasing her,no one is at my back..alone...

So, totally, not worth it.

But why is it still painful....ewan, sguro natapakan lang ego ko, or I still have a little piece of hope, or I just realized that the girl loves her more than I do...

Ewan.....

Ok, for the nth time, carino brutal....
Chasing pavements

Ive made up my mind
dont need to think it over
if im wrong i am right
dont need to look no further
this aint lust i know this is love

but if i tell the world
i'll never say enough
cos it was not said to you
and thats exactly what i need to do
if i end up with you

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

i build myself up
and fly around in circles
waiting as my heart drops
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it

or should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

yeaaah ehh

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere
or would it be a waste
even if i new my place should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep on chasing pavements
should i just keep on chasing pavements

ooooohhh

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where

even if it leads no where

Chasing Pavements - ADELE

Happy Cressy!!!

2009-02-20T16:51:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Cressy!!!!

Miss You!!!

38

2009-02-17T17:21:00.000+08:00

Thirty-Eight Things

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night?
My brother Rex who is in UK, we were chatting in YM about the bitch that were trying to pull our family down, of course we didn't curse her or to that effect, we just have to put humor on our "so called" family problem. Heheh, supposed to be a secret so, I just have to tell it till here..hehehe

2. What were you doing at 0800?
Eating dinner with my folks, as usual, full.

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Washing the dishes

4. What happened to you in 2006?
Broke up with a jerk..and get together again and ended up breaking my heart twice in a year..imagine!!!

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
Ano??? I was asking someone that question as I am clueless...

6. How many beverages did you have today?
Awful lot! Lost count! Went out so, thirsty....

7. What color is your hairbrush?
Black

8. What was the last thing you paid for?
Load

9. Where were you last night?
Haws, where else

10. What color is your front door?
Brown

11. Where do you keep your change?
Coin purse

12. What’s the weather like today?
Hot

13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
Pistacchio

14. What excites you?
Travelling to a new place

15. Do you want to cut your hair?
No

16. Are you over the age of 25?
Affirmative

17. Do you talk a lot?
Only when I'm comfortable

18. Do you watch the O.C.?
Not anymore, lost the time...

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
Do Steven Spielberg , Steven Seagal, and Steven Curtis Chapman count?

20. Do you make up your own words?
Shurevaloo!!! Op chors!

21. Are you a jealous person?
Kinda...sorta....

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
Alvin

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
Karen

24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
Number lang, but it was Jovie, from the other night.

25. What does the last text message you received say?
Globe advisory

26. Do you chew on your straw?
All the time

27. Do you have curly hair?
Kinda

28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?
Never-never land

29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?
I'm not telling

30. What was the last thing you ate?
Sizzling pusit, yum yum

31. Will you get married in the future?
Duh...next question please.. .hehehe

32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
none, not into watching movies for now eh....

33. Is there anyone you like right now?
Long term/ concrete/ objective: Wala pa...
Short term/ notional/ subjective: someone named Chris but he is set to get married, and who is he??? Secret..he doesnt know me naman so wat da hehehe,crush ko lang kse he is a good singer
Material/ mercenary/ irrational: Uggs/boots

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
30 minutes ago

35. Are you currently depressed?
A little

36. Did you cry today?
Nope

37. Why did you answer and post this?
I haven't posted anything in 2 days. My life is boring....

Figures eheheh.....

Am tagging evryone who gets to read this post...because...I wanna know you better..from these 38 things...

Kaya?

Kaya yan....

Happy Valentines

2009-02-14T19:55:00.006+08:00

Happy Valentines!!!

According to Kristine Gambito a.k.a. Happy Slip

" Whether You are SINGLE...or in a Relationship....Know that YOU ARE SPECIAL...365 days in a year "

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I love this video of hers, it made me laugh, and also she reminds me, nothing wrong being single....on Valentine's day!!!

Hope you have a great Hearts day!!!!

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ciao!

I Saw The Sign

2009-02-13T21:59:00.005+08:00

It's just one day before Valentine's Day, and I am feelin a little out placed,everyone is getting hitched around me, have specific plans for "the" day,they have significant O's (at ako nagpapaka -others) But I realize, I miss the feeling of being inlove, wanted and needed....

But the thing is, am not ready to take a plunge on what they call love and relationship...I guess am not just traumatized but uber traumatized! My first relationship ended with insecurity on his side, he felt that he cannot be a good bf to me, 2nd one was full of lies, third one, we broke apart and he chose to be with his new found love, and the 4th one, well...he just wasn't the one just yet as am not too over the 3rd one, deym! Chummyness ba...

Not! I was just looking back with relationships, and most of the time it's either , I don't have a bf during Valentines, or we can't be together, since 2 of those are LDR (long Distance relationship)heheh, I think I cannot handle another long distance relationship...it is nto for me I guess.

Looking back, this is my 2nd year without a boyfriend, deym, nagpapa kabitter na ata talaga ako hehe....

Hayy, have no right to question why, perhaps something is wrong with me na ren, hahha oo naman, I feel that it is my fault why I end up being jaded na ren, but ain't it unfair naman? I just wanted to be loved, and needed. I wanted to feel important, and special, is that too much to ask for?
I was browsing on youtube the other day and was fond watching short films, hayy I tell you if you're a bumm for months now, you can roam around the net and find chummyness, and all...I just hope this happens in real life...

I want you to watch it...In a way it gave me hope, It made me feel that nothing is impossible, as long as there is communication....These are the signs...and I saw it...:))

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Galeng no? Imagine, if this happens in real life...

Anyways, though I am not joining the bandwagon (lovapalooza, getting roses on the valentines day, or chocolates, or sweet nothings, and most of all am not adored , loved and have a boyfriend..)

Happy Valentines...am sure there is someone out there for me, I just have to wait...

Hahaha hoping...

Kung wala man...

Kiber!!!!

Happy Birthday Joviness!!!!

2009-02-11T14:53:00.000+08:00

Yep, Happy Birthday today to my cute sistah..Jovi!!
I know I did a silly thing eheh, sorry, but told Ron and Elmer naman eh so, di ko na kasalanan yun! Ahahah

I so miss you!!! Ingats!

I Miss Him

2009-02-10T01:08:00.001+08:00

I miss him

The very first man in my life....my Dad.
The last few days was a challenge for me, I am out of sight, and out of sync.
I just need to prove to myself that I am okay, and that whatever happens I will pull through.

I started to miss him again, whenever I am in the sala, where we use to be such a couch potato, he is the only person I know who will endure my company when we watch TV till the cable load will ran out, we never get tired watching TV< watching boxing with him is heaven! I never mind paying pay per view on all Pacquiao's fight. Today watching TV is a distress, two days ago, I was sitting where he usually sits when he watch TV, and then I started to burst out, it's not the same way, it is just like watching TV for no apparent reason at all...

A while ago, we ate sphagetti, for no reason at all, and we talked about him again, I am fond of eating because eating with my Dad's company is an art, you will hear how he utters how delicious it is to eat...seeing him that way is so much fun, my Dad is so hard to please but whenever we have siomai, wanton, egg rolls, anything edible that we bring him, is so much appreciated, I miss those days where in he is so much excited opening it up, and eating it with pleasure..

Several times my mom will tell me, how my Dad trusts me so much and how hopeful he is about my plans for the future, it's just a shame that am not believing in myself. I have several times as well quit on my ordeal, and I usually don't appreciate the littlest things that should boost my being. I failed to notice those, but I finally realize why he doesn't tell me anything about it...He wants me to learn all those, my own way.

I am just thankful of how my Dad had become, and how well we have become as well. You see, My Dad, came from a very poor family from Mindoro, and he was not even a college graduate, yet he managed to put all his 5 children to college, all graduates. He is indeed a man of service, I even remember when I mentioned on his necrological service on the last night of the wake, my Dad needed to retire soon as he was diagnosed of having diabetes on his thirteenth year in the Middle East, we had a jeepney and drivers to work for us to sustain our daily needs, yet he still drives the commuter jeepney that we have at night so that we can have baon, he managed to also have apartments for rent based in Manila that supported our needs those times. These things made me realize that not being well educated, or not being well off can stop you from dreaming when you know you need to dream for your family.

I am so proud of my Dad, though he seems so snobbish and strict, I was able to see his true colors, he was just like that, as distinct as I am. But I loved him for those imperfections and flaws.

I wanted to do something for my Dad and I was attempting to do this several times, I just don't have the right song tuned with this, until I heard Avril Lavigne's song, and the lyrics was just so perfect!

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

Na na na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you

-Slipped Away by Avril Lavigne

Am getting sentimental again I know, but it's natural..I guess, I know we will never get over the fact that he died when we are not so ready, I was about to get ready to face it but the memories I had with him makes it harder.

As a tribute to a great husband and a wacky/sometimes hard to deal with yet so sweet, great cook, spoiler,hardworker, food ethusiast, encourager, great disciplinarian, and a Dad that I will never dare compare to anyone coz he is just so unique, am now presenting you, my simple thank you, I know nothing will edge what you have done to your 5 kids, and to Mom, you have been a great Dad..I so miss you...I will see you again

I love you..always has, and I will always will.

RIP
Jacob S. Vitto

Miss you Popsy!!

Beinte Singko

2009-02-07T16:47:00.000+08:00

Rules
Once you have been tagged, write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, thoughts, or goals about you. Then choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If i tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you. At the very least, its a fun time waster :-)

(To do this go to "notes" under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)
> Tagged in Facebook

1. I was a geek, scholar in high school having graduated in Special High School. Where I had Physics, Chemistry. Biology and Math subjects for 4 years, and yea, recieving an allowance all those 4 years from the government.

2. Wanted to be a doctor so I took up BS Biology at FEU but changed my mind on my 2nd year so I graduated with a degree in Physical Therapy. I tried to practice my course but end up working in call center.

3. My first job though was as a copyeditor, as I liked to write, but the call center business took me in hehehe...Was working on a call center for 5 years till I resigned last August.

4. I am the third in the brood of 5, so I may be suffering from middle child syndrome ehehe...

5. My siblings and my Mum says I am my Tatay's fave, so I miss him...so much, myDad just died last Oct 15, 2008 :(

6. Been living in the same vicinity all my life, so you can say Iam batang Nagtahan...am so comfortable going in and out of the area, so working in a call center did not issue any problems in the area.

7. I love dogs. We had dogs since forever, all of our dogs dies on their thirteenth year, currently we have a shitzu nmed Schumi and Japanese spitz/mongrel heheh named Kobe.

8. My family loves to eat, thus I don't have the slightest inkling on going to the gym since we love to eat eheheh....If you visit our house here and in Pangasina, food will never be a problem.

9. Iam set to study again but this time in Berkshire UK, to pursue masterals, Iam a bit excited but at the same time sad that I will be leaving Manila for atleast 2 years...

10. I have been a blogger for almost 5 years, starting since May 2004. Am maintaining a blog at www.dyannesky.blogspot.com
So if you are not busy you can visit that site as well :p

11. I was an alcoholic years back, hehehe, not really. But I can finish 10 beers in one sitting without getting drunk, Iam always the last one standing making sure my other friends are ok once we end the beer session.

12. I am still single, and not looking, as my priorities right now are my studies, yeah right, heheh...my younger sister is set to get married this year so I am giving way o dba...satisified?

13. Am such a lover of music, lately, getting addicted to downloading music, I cannot sleep without listening to my fave songs.

14. I love eating ice cream and chocolate when am down and depressed. And oh, btw, the fried wanton hehe...

15. I hate rainy days and traffic..had a bout with it yesterday in Edsa..hmmp hayerf!!

16. Was a basketball player in high school, hence was a basketball fan back in the 90's. I had a huge crush with Alvin Patrimonio.Purefoods fan...

17. I love singing as well, been a choir member since high school and loves to videoke, even at home...if you want to see me sing as well as my friends, go to my youtube account, dyannesky.

18. I hate riding LRT, and or MRT until I had friends to ride on it again at work.

19. I love taking pictures, but I don't like people taking pictues of me..how wierd is that eheheh!

20. One of my weird habit is reading the newspaper but checking the obituary page first.

21. Ther first impression about me is that Iam suplada, and maldita, well am not, I am so afraid to get amd coz when I get mad, I am so impossible ahahah!

22. I love to laugh though, I have this so weird laugh that am comfortable laughing with my family and close friends.

23. I love to stay at home now, either am just online or, am watching TV.

24. I love travelling, and being with friends, just to converse and catch up

25. I was a coffee addict, I stopped since November...no caffeine...no Starbucks since.

Iam tagging evryone who visits my site....

:p

Break Away

2009-02-06T09:13:00.000+08:00

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Some people just don't change

2009-02-01T19:06:00.000+08:00

I accidentally found out that he again cheated on her current....
I smiled, honestly, but it didn't felt so good...
2 years ago, I was the one betrayed, now the current found out he again cheated!

I wanted to talk to her and ask what made her believe him for two years and 7 months, while on the side he is still calling me and telling me he just need to have the right timing to break it off on her gently...*the nerve!

I didn't cause he says he thinks he has found the one, and after all, I want her to know him better by herself, she knew that I was still the gf when she said yes...*the nerve!

I know I sound bitter, I sound so sour graping, but am not....I just needed to spill this out or else might breakdown...hehe OA, nah I just want him to read my thoughts just in case he thinks he lost everything...

I actually felt that she was the one basing on their friendster account, the pictures, the sweet nothings, how people and friends around them admire their relationship despite the distance, the differences, the things that went by when they decided to be in a relationship.

I was in the verge of accepting that they do deserve one another, until I read one of her friend's comment that once a guy cheats, they will probably do it again (guys, I said probably) and that she should know him better, that they don't deserve each other, and how they don't want to meet him anymore...

Karma? I guess so, but that night when I found out that he cheated, I felt sad that maybe just maybe, he won't change...

I feel sorry for the girl, but sometimes, we just have to learn the hard way...at least now you know how painful it is to be cheated....

Tsk tsk....I hate him more!

Blower's Daughter Scala and Kolacny version....awesome

2009-01-30T00:20:00.002+08:00

Scala & Kolacny Brothers is a Belgian girls' choir, conducted by Stijn Kolacny and accompanied by Steven Kolacny on the piano. Formed in 1996 and winning the Belgian 'Choir of the Year'-contest in 2000, they have made 5 studio albums, starting with On The Rocks in 2002.

Most songs are covers of well-known bands such as Radiohead, U2, Nirvana, Depeche Mode, Muse, Rammstein, etc.

In 2006, Rammstein released their live album Völkerball which features Scala's "Engel".

Damn...I still get goosebumps whenever I hear their songs....this will definitely put me to sleep and feel good even if the songs are 'bout heartbreak like this one hehehe..you can find their videos on youtube....happy listening!

On Long Distance Relationships...

2009-01-29T19:17:00.000+08:00

KT Tunstall song "Other Side of the World" still haunts me as it is is playing on the other computer, usually when I like a song I can totally relate to it, hell, I have a lot of stories...and I had 2 long distance relationships which actually did not work out..I should have known better,the first one, issue was communication, and deception..hayy...am not blogging about this for the heck of bringing up the idea that long distance won't work, it does work...for some, some who are willing to hurdle distance, money and issues of faithfulness...

According to KT,"The song is inspired by a couple of really close friends of mine. The girl is American and the guy is from St. Andrews in Scotland where I live. I met them years ago and they've been together for about 6 years but never lived in the same country. I made my way down to London and they came to visit me and they just decided that they couldn't be together anymore. I could see that they were completely in love with each other but neither was willing to sacrifice their lives, jobs and friends and there just wasn't enough love. I've been in long distance relationships myself, and everything to an extent is autobiographical when you're writing it, because it's your perspective of it. It's not recommended. I'm still in touch with them. 'Get back together!'" Darn, in music, you could just hear a lot of stories....

I dunno why I had 2 long distance relationships and usually I learn on the end...It never works for me...I wanted to but, they just give up easily....I wanted a good fight. but they chose to end it that way.

I remember how I don't care how much phone bill I have to shell out just as long as we communicate...and in fairness, they had their fair share...but..I think..it wasn't enough...There wasn't enough love I guess...

NOT Enough to not never mind the distance....
Not enough hope to stand up on trials and demons of pambabae...hahaha
Not enough to just love the idea of being in a relationship yet youre too far from each other to hug, hold hands, kiss and. hahahah...guess what, I withstood those my longest long distance relationship was 3 years...and in those times we met 45 days all in...
Not enough to seize the day of looking forward on the day you will just look forward on being together.

I guess I was too much hoping....
Hoping to what I thought is worth hurdling for, worth winning too...coz I thought, love is all that matters...I was too idealistic, I totally forgot....the real world doesn't rotate on how long, how far, how many times you have tried and failed and won, but, it will just work out because, you both want to...and need each other...

Both of those long distance relationships, was most of the time,,. one way...

Too bad, they were not willing to finish the line with me...

Makes sense?

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Have to sleep, it is 1:36am on my laptop....

Btw, Happy Birthday Nanay!!! Love you a lot...:p

The Blower's Daughter

2009-01-28T22:47:00.003+08:00

I came across this song while I was trying to watch Closer again

Closer is a 2004 film written by Patrick Marber, based on his award-winning 1997 play of the same name. It was produced and directed by Mike Nichols and stars Natalie Portman, Julia Roberts, Jude Law and Clive Owen.

The film, like the play on which it is based, has been seen by some as a modern and tragic version of Mozart's opera Così fan tutte, with references to that opera in both the plot and the soundtrack.

Owen starred in the play as Dan, the role assumed by Law in the film.

The film was recognized with a number of awards and nominations, including Oscar nominations (and Golden Globe wins) for both Portman and Owen for their performances in supporting roles.

Anyway' much bout the movie, am just loving the song just now, funny ehehe.And I don't realize that the title is The Blower's Daughter.>>> According to Damien Rice, there is no special meaning in the name of the song. Reportedly, the name came to him during a bicycle incident and he enjoyed it...but I dunno perhaps Iam feeling the message of the song, now, I think while it was filmed years ago, I was so happy inlove ahahah..now, 'am boink...torn.

And then I came across one wedding being this song featured in their AVP...it is such a sweet sad song but....I know hearing this will just tell how the man love the girl, like how Dan adored Alice or Ann int he movie...

Now the to die for lyrics...

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you...
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

Awwww...sweet yet painful..already downloaded it on my ipod..I am gonna listen o till I sleep....

Makulay ang Buhay

2009-01-28T06:49:00.000+08:00

Try it yourself.....go to www.goldinuniverse.com

Name: Dee
Date: 1/27/2009
Colorgenics Number: 51732046

You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.

Which ever way you turn you feel that you are being utterly thwarted. There is considerable conflict in the air but you will stick to your beliefs and not be deterred in endeavouring to attain your objectives.

You lack confidence and that is a great pity because deep down you are indeed a warm caring person. This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as if you should let matters lie and leave well alone. But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you. You are beginning to grow and very soon - sooner than you believed possible - this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.

You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.

I'm all out of faith...and this is how I feel

2009-01-23T17:28:00.000+08:00

I went out, and everytime I do...I see people and couples, and when I am in the net...I see people I haven't met in a long time getting married, and found love....They say, when love strikes, it just means you have met your significant other....

Hayy, is this why am so down that I don't wanna go out...?
bitter...angry and so damn confused why I still can't face the fact that I am the only one looking out for him when in fact, my chapter has ended on his love story....

Nothing, just trying to again relate to Natalie Imbruglia's song... "Torn"
I'm all out of faith, and this is how I feel..I'm cold and I'm ashamed...."

Damn Dee....no one to blame but me and my sentimentality....

Deym,deym

On the Other Side of the World

2009-01-22T22:03:00.003+08:00

Just when I thought am doing okay again it hit me....that sometimes you're not yet too over with one person you thought you're done with.
Am done stalking (heheh) well, am everyday online and once in a while I sneak on his page and wait for a new pic just to get updates and see how he's doin, and to find out if they are still much together.
I remembered how he every hour emails me, how he text me sweet nothings, well those text now are nothing but lies ehehe..bitter!
A while ago, I was finding it hard to comprehend how I remained cool with one of my ex's. We still ym, although we don't text na coz I think I erased his number, anyways I was just recalling how come me and pert can't be like that...as much as I try perhaps the pain just won't let us be friends that way.
I tried but he denied my friend request on friendster....
I am sure that he is happy, I am too but I know I need to feel complete but not in the sense that we need to be together. I guess when you did not have that disclosure you wont have that thing in you head and heart. I am not saying that we need to sit down and talk, but I guess there are times that you cannot just have it all and I just feel sorry that we parted that way.
Perhaps I did love him so much that being just a friend won't help anyway, so I chose to be a stranger stalker eheheh..
Come on, I know this is so hard to explain...sometimes you get nostalgic and sappy at the same time, am not trying to remember but my mind remembers as much as I don't want to carry on those bitter memories...hayy, why cant I really let it go..

AND THIS SONG>>>>again makes me remember the bitter truth...he's on the other side of the world...moving on...why can't I??

People of My Year 2008

2009-01-14T18:38:00.000+08:00

Inspired by someone else's blog, she actually cited 10 people/groups who have made his 2008 a memorable one, people who have touched her life in one way or another, thus am also gonna share the ten best people of my 2008.

On the top of my list is my Dad, Mr Jacob S. Vitto, just sad that he died last October 15 due to heart attack, but he has tremendously touched not only my 2008 but the whole of my being. He is the type of person that is misunderstood by people, he does not easily give a smile, but when you get to know him, he is probably the best person you would be needing around. We are not rich yet he managed to send his five children to college. He is a man of service, and the best Dad for me. God, I so miss him, it will be 3 months tomorrow since he left us to be with the Lord. I so miss you Dad, I miss crying infornt of you and telling me to stop...it''s one gesture I would love to hear again....but I can't not anymore, you will be forever in my heart. Thanks a lot for everything....

The second on my list is my Nanay, Nelly Aguila Vitto, who is so far the bravest human being I have ever seen, my Mom have been through a lot ast 2008, and probably one of the hardest that she has encountered is losing my Dad in an instant ...but he remained to be the sole light in the house when our lives went dim due to the tragic death of my Tatay, my Mom still cries whenever we talk about dad, but she always tells us that we nee dto be strong and remain solid as a family...She is the Mom everyone should have, stronger and affectionate...Love you Mom!

Third on my list are my brothers Joel and Rexson

I have to commend my brothers Rexson and Joel for being such a brave Kuya in our grieving times, special mention to my Kuya Jojo who has been hospitalized for an infected thumb, yet he mange to make sure my Tatay has a nice coffin and dealt with the people in Manila Memorial before our father was laid to rest.. I know Jo that I have said such hurtful things during those days but I understand you now, I know you have been through a lot as well but i wanna let you know that I am always here for you as well...and we will pull this through, things just gets better...
Kuya rex has been such a Kuya even before. he knows when all is down he n eeds to pull us up. I know you havent had the chance to cry out infront of us when tatay left us, all the more it was hard for yu that you needed to be braver for us, I was just worried that when Ate arlene ( my sis in law) have to tell us that you cry everytime you get home from work when you miss Tatay, and I wanna let you know that it is OK to cry sometimes, I thank you for making sure that we are OK those tiomes till now...

Meet my sis Cherry, or Che Che who I have been getting to know better on 2008. I quit my job last August and from then on I have been hanging out with her since. She is set to get married last December but my Tatay died last October she need to postpone it.Lately she has been supporting my luho's by treating me out, to pig out or shop...heheh..Sis thank you for plainly being you and for being patient enough my being a brat eheheh...I thank you for making my 2008 worth bumming around eheheh...

The Ilustrados of CVG, at least that is how Mico then called our group, we have been separated due to changes around us so the group did not appear physically together that much, but the start of he year gave us chance to be together again, that night was a blast, it was what it was suppose to be...hehe alcohol plus bunch of crazy people is FUN heheh....proving that distance or changes around us won't be a reason for not gettingalong well despite the changes, I so miss you Team Gayem!!!!

The Raquipiso's...Sette and Dale made my 2008 great as well, I kinda hooked them up last 2007, it was a a blast 2008 as they deicde to get hitched last December 2008. I admired their decision to get married even if a lot of people thinks it is still too early. But I trust that they need to do this because they are sooo inlove...hehe am so happy for the both of you...

Team Chrysler made my 2008 fun and enjoy as well, my remaining days in CVG was such a memorable one ...we are so wacky going out of towns, beer drinking yet what is so unforgettable bout them is the fact that they planned a despidida for me the time am about to resign, though my trip did not happen 2008, they were supportive as well when my Dad died. Thank you Team Chrysler for being atrue team and a friend in the true sense of the word.

Ronald Portugal...or Arpo...as I call him...he has been through a lot as well last 2008 yet he manage to stand up life's battles...I admire his bravery through life's trials...yet he still is one of the few persons who will be there when you need to just whine and pig out...always ready for his jokes and make you laugh so hard, hayy Arpo, I thank you for giving time to catch up last week in Mega....that won't be the last till I leave, I promise.

Cressy Silverio and Edward Infante
Cressy and Ed proved to be the bestest friends I could ever have around be it happy or sad. I will never forget how we hang out for that neyo concert,even if we did not have any out of town trip, the bar trips we had was just a lot of fun...I thank you for being there especially on my trying times. I so miss you both I hope we can meet up real soon to catch up a bit...Thank you for the gift of friendship.

Who' s your ten?
Just a simple tribute to the people who have made my 2008 memorable....whether they know it or not...

I could be your Hero baby.....

2009-01-13T19:41:00.000+08:00

For how many days now, my sis and I are brainstorming on her wedding due this year or next, so usually we are online,looking first for prospect gowns, and then afterwards, gowns for the entourage, and a day after, color motifs, my mom is laughing since she says it's too early to prepare, but I told my mom that usually it is safe to prepare way beyond to make sure there won't be bo-boos or problems, I love weddings contrary to lot of my friends who believe that am such a grinch when it comes to it. I have attended 2 weddings last year and that made me super excited bout weddings...I dunno I have this chummy side when the couples share their wedding vows, how the cake theme was made, or the colors of their weddings, and weeks before Rosette and dale's wedding, I wanted them to have this wedding song played on their first dance, so i wanna make sure that my sister's wedding will be that special as well, and that i want her to make sure that she will feel so fulfilled and so excited for her day...

Anyways, I just spoke with an old friend minutes ago, same age, my classmate during high school, and I shared to her that my sis is set to walk down the aisle in a few months, and God we laughed...we have been dreaming of walking down the aisle,with our significant others, and have felt at one point that we have found our soulmates atlast...not knowing, it's just one of the guys...and heartbreak is bound...hayyy, our younger sis get married before us...and here we are still single...

Contemplating again on failed relationships, I again asked what the heck happened, why it did not work out with them, how you thought you have gave your all yet it is still not enough on them, how they manage to cheat and put the blame on you as well...how you just wanted to be with that someone who will be your all, your someone to rescue you from pain and all...

I guess...he is out there I know...but then I read this from another blog and just perfect, he gave me the answer to my endless question if and when am being on the chummy side....

READ THIS:

Sometimes you have to stop waiting for someone to come along and fix what's wrong. You have to stop feeling sorry for yourself and realize that no one else has the answer. Sometimes you just have to be your own hero."

I guess it's about time to concentrate on looking?
No, it is about time to just not wait at all...
I maybe overlooking what Iam really and was focusing more on what he should be...
I think it is about time that I focus on me,me me...and that I could be my own hero....

shet, am I making sense???sorry, am not sleepy pa kse, looking after schumi as well as he is sick,kinda sick.....at nag eemote dahil ako n lang single sa familya huhuhu...

Iam just hearing enrique iglesias sing, i can be your hero baby....

Life Goes On

2009-01-10T14:42:00.002+08:00

It's the 10th day of 2009 and after a lot of soul searching and questions as to what should be and what should I do, i think am beginning to see a clear picture.
I know and my close friends know these, that even if I have already planned things, I still feel as if I'm really not sure and afraid of what may happen in the future. Yeah, i have been feeling a lot of hesitations and I could not trust myself to be fully prepared of major changes in my life.
Looking back on 2008, i felt I had too much, but that's not fair, I think my Mom had too much and I am just so proud that she hurdled it nicely. Imagine having a son who almost died, and a husband who died instantly, and a youngest daughter lying to you...I would not know what would I do if I am faced with such ordeals. But I am happy that she dealt it with pride, and she is stronger than ever.
This week a bit changed my life's perspectives and made me realize that I can..I really can do something for my life.I met with three important friends this week, and this made me feel that I have them as true friends. I have been just contained in the house since I don't have a choice am still awaiting for my UK visa, am fixing things at the house as well and at the same time I am looking after my Mom, I don't want to leave her alone, so am usually going out of the house after lunch when my other siblings is at home.
A few days after 2008 ended, I have reviewed how my life turned out. I know it wasn't so good having a lot of trials, and at the same time, losing my Dad, was such a great impact on my being. How I wish He is here so I can show him that am living his legacy that am able and ready to do things for me, and for them, him especially. I am so afraid of leaving because I am afraid of the things I may lose. But I realized even if I leave if people here genuinely love me, what I left will always welcome me with open arms....When I return, it could only get better. We can't always have what we want because it won't be sweet enough if you don't work hard for it.
I should also leave the baggage that doesn't love me enough. I know 2008 was also a time for dealing with people I have adored in my life and a few times I would have wanted to take the chances, but what the heck, they are not brave enough to fight for it and fight for me. There were times that I have already given up on love, but I still don't know. I really don't know.
Amidsts all the pain and the sorrows, I believe life goes on....they have move on, I need to move on as well.
Am about ready for 2009, Iam afraid, and hesitancies are just natural but we have to move on and move forward...with God, all things are possible and I am a hopeful realist...I hope and always realize that things happens....and I need to cope and accept it.

Happy 2009!!!!

Rah's Al Ghul

2009-01-01T23:33:00.002+08:00

Happy New year peeps!!! jusrt came home from the Family reunion, as usual, my stomach is full..burp ehehehe...and so tired from the trip..it is yearly done in Las Pinas,atleast an hour away from manila...good thing it's a holiday...thus not that traffic....
Anyways am getting addicted to muvee.com...I have done several muvees from their software and a few hours before new year was able to do another one for my very first team in Convergys ed by out then TL, Jojo Gayem...miss them trying to remember the past by going through our old pixs...hayyy I miss yah...was trying to figure out how we had this team name before Rah'Al ghul...and here's what came up according to google.....

Ra's al Ghul is an international terrorist and assassin whose ultimate goal is a world in perfect environmental balance. He believes that the best way to achieve this balance is to eliminate most of humanity. Ra's usually tries to assault the world's human populace with a biological weapon, such as a genetically-engineered virus. He is aided in this quest by the Lazarus Pits, reservoirs of rejuvenating chemicals that restore the dying to life; these pits have granted him a lifespan of several hundred years.

He considers Batman his most worthy opponent, and has frequently sought to make the Dark Knight his successor. He is one of the few criminals in Batman's rogues gallery to have deduced his secret identity as Bruce Wayne. For his own part, Batman's opposition to Ra's is complicated by his love for the villain's daughter, Talia.

Ra's Al Ghul is the single most mysterious and cunning of Batman's foes. He does not associate with the criminally insane group of the rogues gallery. Ra's Al Ghul is a criminal like no other. No one knows exactly when he was born, but he claims to have been alive for over 600 years. His name translated means "The Demon's Head."

Ra's heads a worldwide criminal organization, whose mission is to purify a polluted planet, and restore nature to the dominion abridged by the human race, ultimately creating a better world where he would rule. He will use whatever means and force necessary to achieve his twisted vision of a new utopian society. Ra's is always accompanied by his faithful bodyguard, Ubu. His madness originates in the unique power source which maintains his body's appearance, The Lazarus Pit. It is a substance of unknown elements which replenishes the body, like a fountain of youth. The side affects however are spells of sheer madness. Being addicted to this substance for so long has dried any bit of morals and values for Ra's Al Ghul. He views himself as above any preset laws which are governed by mankind. He has many followers, and heads a cult like organization filled with men who will do his bidding. He is extremely dangerous and cunning.

His interest in Batman arose when he felt the Lazarus Pits affect was dwindling. Ra's feels he needs a male to be his successor. Since his only offspring is his daughter Talia, he has to choose a male to marry her that is worthy of becoming ruler of his vast empire. Ra's proves his resourcefulness to Batman by meeting the "Detective" as he calls him, in his own Batcave confirming that he knows his secret. Upon implementing many tests to prove whether Batman was worthy of becoming his successor, Ra's knew immediately he had found the one. But Batman refused numerous times, and thus Ra's believes that since he will not be with him, they must be against each other, as enemies. He is highly sophisticated and can be quite hypnotic. Ra's has returned many times after Batman thinks has foe had perished.

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Villain...but a different kind of villain hehehe...kaya pala astig kme nun eheheh

Miss you Team!!!!

Reminiscin, 2008

2008-12-26T11:06:00.000+08:00

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
I quit my job after 2 years and 6 months for my plans to study abroad....but I need to postponed my trip due to some things that need attention in here.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions and will you make more for next year?
I don't make one..ever. :)

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Hmm...as far as I know....NONE

4. Did anyone close to you die?
My Dad died last Octiber 15th of this year.

5. What countries did you visit?
I never travelled outside the country this year....saving saving eheheh

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
- TRUE and honest boyfriend pa ren ehehehe..and good career...:p

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
October 15, the day my Dad died, I will forever remember his loss and my promises to him before he breathe his last breath.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Was able to finish paperworks for my study abroad..was able to decide finally something for myself....LONG OVERDUE...:p

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not able to show my Dad that am now able and ready to do something for myself....:(

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
No...Just some minor coughs and colds....

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Wala nman, I quit my job this year, and all I bought for myself was an ipod nanochromatic and my samsung phone last february....

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My mom....I thought she's gonna be weak with the tremendous challenges we had...but she is strong and was able to pull through...

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My youngest sis...but I trust that she will learn everything as time goes by.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Load, food, some dress and bags and shoes, for my London trip soon.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
- getting the visa for London

16. What song(s) will always remind you of 2008?
- Take a bow by Rihanna

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? -- sadder.
ii. thinner or fatter? -- same
iii. richer or poorer? -- poorer ehehehe

18. What do you wish you'd done more?
Spend more time with my Dad :(

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Spend money with precious nothings ehehehe

20. How many one-night stands?
- none....gud girl.....

21. What was your favorite TV program?
Eat Bulaga pa din SOLID!

22. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No...life is too short to vent out and be mad...a few misunderstandings but I just learn from it.

23. What was the best book you read?
11 minutes by Paulo Coelho

24. What was your greatest musical discovery?
- dami.

25. What did you want and get?
Ipod nanochromatic 4th gen

26. What was your favorite film of this year?
Vantage Point....:p

27. What did you do on your birthday,
Dinner with my parents as usual

28. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
More money pa ren

29. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Bolder eheheh

30. What kept you sane?
- friends. and my blog.

31. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
President Barack Obama

32. What political issue stirred you the most?
Jocjoc Volante case....

33. Who did you miss?
my Tatay

34. Who was the best new person you met?
CJ Virata...I liked her...no pretentions

35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008
Life is too short...seize the day and trust God more....

36. What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself:
That I deserve the respect of everyone and that am selfless....unselfish indie

37. The most touching experience you've had this year?

My former team mates planned a despidida party for me last August since am resigning and was (then) bound to London the following month...I will never forget how special they made me feel that night....

38. What did you like most about yourself this year?
I am more stronger after all the problems that surfaced.

39. What did you hate most about yourself this year?
Was forgiving to some people who doesnt deserve it.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"it's our God forsaken right to be Loved..loved loved' -I'm yours by jason Mraz

41. Was 2008 a good year for you?
Not really, my bro got sick, I quit my job, my Dad died in October...but because of these...Iam stronger...and tougher.

42. What was your favorite moment of the year?
after I quit my job...was able to be more closer to my family since am now a bumm eheheh

43. What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Seeing and witnessing how my Dad battled heart attack and being pronounced dead after 20 mins, that October morning.

44. Where were you when 2008 began?
- at home.

45. Who were you with?
- family.

46. Where will you be when 2008 ends?
- at home din.

47. Who will you be with when 2008 ends?
- pamilya pa rin minus Tatay

48. Do you have a new years resolution for 2009?
- nope. as i've said, i dont do resolutions.

49. What was your favorite month of 2008?
- July-August complete kse kami my brother from UK came home and spend time with us, not realizing it will be our last few times with Tatay

50. What was your favorite record from 2008?
Rihanna's songs especially Take a Bow

51. Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2008?
Nope...refraining form the alcohol effect.

52. Do a lot of drugs in 2008?
- nah.

53. You do anything you are ashamed of this year?
- maybe.

54. How much money did you spend in 2008?
- a lot!

55. What was your proudest moment of 2008?
being stronger after all the challenges.

56. What was your most embarrassing moment of 2008?
- wala naman.

57. If you could go back in time to any moment of 2008 and change something, what would it be?
I wish we could have known that dad was that sick ven if he doesnt tell us anything...

58. What are your plans for 2009?
Am leaving in a few weeks so I hope for the best....

59. How are you different now that the year has ended?
Stronger and unafarid of the what ifs.

60. What are your wishes for the new year?
Be happier...and do things for my family especially Tatay.

New year in a few days....lotsa things happened but am just thankful for freinds, family and the Lord for all the blessings and for giving us the chance to touch and feel everyday with pride....

I thank everyone for sticking it out with me.....

God Bless You....

A Love Story

2008-12-13T17:20:00.000+08:00

This is not about my lovelife...but this is about my two good friends who have found each other and in a few days will swear infront of their loved ones and to God that they will be man and wife...

This is Rosette and Rondale's love story....

here's how they met....

Okay, first and foremost Rosette is my friend from previous workplace, even if I resigned we still hang around and one of those instrances is the Family Day last year (September 2007) from CVG wherein we watched a movie and Dale was the designated person to hand over the ticket as well as the paper to put in our names for the raffle, tapos, Rosette asked Dale if kelangan pa lagyan ng phone number, sabe ni Dale no need pero if she likes OK lang ahahah..style mo Rondale!!!

I knew from then na tinamaan si Dale, but I didn't tell Rosette kagad, kse one day Rondale went to create quickkom sa work and asked how Rosette was...fishing ahaha..khet di p nya ask, I gave Rosette's number khet di p ren ako nagpapaalam kay Sette afterwards ren nman sinabi ko ke sette in fairness...kaso nde p ren ngtxt si Dale ke Rosette until 3 weeks later ata...after my trip from Singapore wala p ren text !!! Hahaha

Rondale took the slow turn, kse I understand Sette had a not so good relationship before Dale...pero na get over nman nya, I just don't want Sette to feel the pressure...eventually Dale made his move...kaso chaperon ako!!! Their first date...Tagaytay!!!! (Date na di obvious) hahahah

Naalala nyo ba ito November last year, wala ka pa sinasabi Dale...puro pahapyaw, hiya ka pa daw kunwari pero this trip to Tagaytay made me realize how much u really swoon over Rosette, to think you have shift that evening...a bulalo trip and some vodka on the picnic grove was such an eyeopener to me na pwede ...pwede kayo ni Sette...

And who would ever forget Sagada??? Yes that same month Novemver 27-29 you followed us to Sagada...not knowing you would have the surprise of your life....ah ikaw lang ba nasurprise Dale? Nag truth or dare tayo eh knowing me...I can be silly sometimes..I could never forget your reaction was Dale, ambagal mo kase September pa kayo nagkakilala and a dozen lunches came na, nde ka pa pala nagtatapat!!!! Waaa. so I have to do my moves as well..kse I know Rosette unless you don't tell her you like her upfront kahit obvious na...she would not believe you!!! Ayun napaamin ka din diba...after Sagada...it is now clear....Dale loves Rosette...
So Does Rosette love Dale???

Hmmmmmmm

Balik Manila....they are officially dating...nde naman sila naging kaagad.. I don't want them to feel the pressure, pero I mentioned to Rosette na maybe he is the one kse I have never seen her that happy and comfortable with the guys she dated...Eh knowing her...and the effort ke Dale...grabe saludo ako...so I am not really with them when they go out..I want them to know each other by their own ...

Until...they are together na..December 23, they went out and become officially on...Rosette spend the Christmas eve with us..and Dale fetch us from home and days after. Rosette needs to go to Cagayan fro New Year.. I took this picture on our way to the bus station...Sweet

Although nde n kame msyado naghahang around ni Rosey, I definitely believe na they are doing good together,,,I was one of the few persons na right after Rosey's birthday last May, Dale proposed to her!!!!

She said yes.....

It' s not about how long you have been together, it is about finding each other and able and ready to forever...naks...but I still stand with what I believe since that vacay in Sagada made me see the both of you can be an item...and not just an item Mr and Mrs!!!

Am so excited about your wedding this Thursday, this is just the beginning of your life together and I definitely am happy that you will stand up infront of God and promise each other forever...

I am glad that I have been your cupid...
I am thankful you have learned to love each other...
Take care of each other ayt?

Allow me to end with the lyrics of the song of your first dance...

I didn't need to ask or even wonder why, because each question is answered when your near.
and I'm wise enough to know when a miracle unfolds, this is the last time i'll fall in love.
Now don't hold back, just let me know.
Could i be moving much too fast or way too slow.
'Cause all of my life, I've waited for this day.
To find that once in a lifetime, this is it, I'll never be the same.
You'll never know what it's taken me to say these words.
And now that I've said them, they could never be enough.
As far as I can see, there's only you and only me.

This is the last time I'll fall in love.
Last time i'll fall in love.
The last time i'll fall... in love.

Raquipiso-Dingayan
December 18, 2008

Get it Over

2008-12-11T12:20:00.002+08:00

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

No

Well, I’d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you’re gone and I’m haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

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have said a lot of goodbyes...but this song made me realize...i should be over it...not worth waiting and hoping for one guy to change coz he isn't willing....

Pacquiao Won!!!!!

2008-12-07T08:35:00.000+08:00

Manny gave us this day!!!
Yahoo Philipines!!!
Pacquiao won on 8th round when dela Hoya decided to quit!!!

Go Manny!!!!!

2008-12-07T03:08:00.001+08:00

Show your support.
Post a shoutout for Manny.

2008-12-04T17:53:00.002+08:00

If i were a boy (guy version) - lee carr

If I were a girl
even just for a day
I'd get out of bed in the morning
and take forever to get ready
Complain to my friends
as if they got a man
They talk about you cause they're jealous
and I just stay and listen to it (I should get rid of them)

If I were a girl
I dont think I'd understand
how it feels to love a boy
I swear I'd be a better woman

I'd listen to him
cause I don't know everything
I would always try to tell him that he needs to treat me better
Like I don't gotta change at all

If I were a girl

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake, think I'd forgive you like that? (I don't)
If you thought I would wait for you,
you thought wrong (I did wrong)
But you're just a boy

and you're just a girl

You don't understand

No you don't understand

How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her

and you don't listen to him

You don't care how it hurts (you don't care how I feel)
Until you lose the one you wanted
cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy

and you're just a girl

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Bitter, nde naman am just citing some facts what woman think, what a man thinks and most of the time they don't understand each other and thus they clash and break up....
My ex called a while ago and and I was telling him,how I like beyonce's rendition of if i were a boy and sometimes i think it tells all about how one girl is taken for granted..and knowing him hnde papatalo...sbe nya me rendition din yung guy na ganun nakakatuwa wouldnt believe him until he gave me a link....hahah nyaks i listened to it several times....and sabe ko gnun tlaga lage kayong mga lalake di nagpapatalo..nauna nman si beyonce ng gawa p kau ng rendition eh copied naman from if i were a girl..nah am not fighting with him gnun lng tlga kme mag talo nun kso madalas talo sya sken.
pero it sometimes is true....

Haist...

EMAIL EXCERPTS topic HONESTY

2008-12-03T04:59:00.000+08:00

honesty is the best policy

There is this poem that i read about being honest and this says it all i guess anyway, here it goes:

There are always two choices, two paths to take.
One is easy. And your only reward is that it's easy.
You cannot do wrong without suffering wrong.

Work joyfully and peacefully,
knowing that right thoughts and right efforts
will inevitably bring about right results.

You can never lose anything that really belongs to you,
and you can't keep that which belongs to someone else.

You always experience the consequences of your own acts.
If your acts are right, you'll get good consequences;
if not, you'll suffer for it.

Sooner or later everyone sits down to a banquet of consequences.

****************************************************************************************

The thing is, when you dont get honest almost always, it gets you in trouble. And most often, you get to hurt somebody. That's why, it is just fine that you get to be honest. I mean, it doesnt get hurt to be saying the whole truth, especially if you don't mean any harm.

I know, I sometimes lie,everyone does, but when you look back and think about it, you don't also want anyone especially the ones that you care about to be hurt with those lies.

so I must say, to be able to have a smooith sailing relationship, a smooth harmonious life, it is but necessary to be totally honest.

Unless otherwise you are happy that someone gets hurt with every lie you make.

kaya bebe, be honest!!!!!!

heheh love you
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++\6 mos later....he lied

Welcoming December with a Smile

2008-12-01T19:39:00.000+08:00

Have you looked outside tonight?
Was able to view this while am buying barbecue for dinner. :)

It’s a phenomenon to occur only once in 48 years and a lot of us are lucky to witness this event; especially on the first of December of this Holiday Month.

And the Sentimenta Schmuck Returns

2008-11-28T16:25:00.000+08:00

This is what usually happens when I have nuthin to do, not able to go out and talk with sense with friends and you're almost broke as a joke.

I was browsing to different sites, made my account on myspace, and used facebook for a week while friendster was down, even tried tagged and chat in their and then I finally used the search button and typed his name....and then I browsed on his site, saw their pictures, and again made some bitter statement.

I am sure my friends are gonna laugh at me, but am way better now compared to before, but it really just hits you, the bitterness, the hurt won't dissapear that easy..and it wont totally leave you because you just so genuinely love the person that you will several times ask why, and what the hell happened.

Pasensya na, am such a sentimental schmuck as I was once been told by my ex, I can never just move on that easy because am always thinking of the happy memories rather than the bad ones. I can say that this is one of my bad habits, I usually get stucked with the memories and never move on real good..I am moving on it's just that I always look for answers and even making sure that I hear his side of the story..ad most of the time I dont see the picture real good..maybe it's my eyes...naive ba ko or talagang tanga ahahaha!!!

Am blogging with a little bit of alcohol on my body, which is a bit weird..am blogging with a heavy heart as well, reliving the memories, hearing the old love songs that I used to love when we were together and also hearing the songs after the bad break up...how jealous Iam when one person finds forever and me when I know for a fact that I can love him more than her yet he still chooses her.

I realized, i dont have to ask...and also I don't have to expect that one person will love me because I love him with all my heart and mind..because that crazy killer feeling won't work until the other chooses to love you back...

Maybe am plagued with self pity or darn bitterness and yea Rihanna may be right when she said ;

Should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked in to rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked in to rehab
And baby, you're my disease

nah nah nah am not drunk again the sentimental shmuck is surfacing....

Crazy that sucker feeling....

I just noticed...I am talking bout him again

And thousand times thinking what the hell happened....

I must quit him!!!!

Apple-epol Translate this and enjoy!!!

2008-11-20T17:23:00.000+08:00

Patunayan ang pagiging tunay na Pinoy!

"EPOL-APPLE"
Pakisalin sa salitang Ingles ang mga salitang Tagalog. Simple lang…

Bilang	Ang Salitang Tagalog	Starts with
1	abenida	A
2	adhika	A
3	aguhilya	H
4	ahedres	C
5	alpombra	C
6	amanos	Q
7	angkla	A
8	apog	L
9	asarol	H
10	asero	S
11	asoge	M
12	aspile	P
13	bagwis	W
14	bahagdan	P
15	batubalani	M
16	balara	D
17	balarila	G
18	balintataw	P
19	balumbon	R
20	bisig	A
21	butaw	F
22	kabanata	C
23	kabihasnan	C
24	kalaboso	J
25	kalasag	S
26	kalaykay	R
27	kamagong	M
28	kamisadentro	S
29	kapilya	C
30	kola	G
31	konde	C
32	koreo	M
33	krusipiho	C
34	kusot	S
35	dama	C
36	dikya	J
37	duhat	B
38	dutsa	S
39	eskrima	F
40	espongha	S
41	gabinete	C
42	gatilyo	T
43	gisantes	P
44	gulod	S
45	gunita	M
46	guryon	K
47	guwantes	G
48	halimaw	M
49	halingling	G
50	hapag	T
51	hibla	F
52	hilik	S
53	hinanakit	G
54	hinete	J
55	hinlalaki	T
56	hipo	T
57	hiringgilya	S
58	hugot	D
59	hulma	M
60	hunyango	C
61	hurno	O
62	igat	E
63	itsa	T
64	labaha	R
65	laktaw	S
66	lagda	S
67	lawin	H
68	lebadura	Y
69	lila	V
70	limos	A
71	lintik	L
72	lyre	L
73	lulon	S
74	luya	G
75	luwalhati	G
76	mabini	M
77	halubilo	M
78	balatkayo	D
79	mumog	G
80	lampaso	M
81	halimuyak	F
82	maharlika	N
83	laswa	D
84	himagsik	R
85	maselan	D
86	maton	B
87	maya	S
88	mayelo	I
89	medida	T
90	mitsa	W
91	mongha	N
92	muwebles	F
93	nangangalumata	H
94	nilaga	S
95	nitso	T
96	niyebe	S
97	nunal	M
98	ngawit	T
99	ngisi	G
100	nguya	C
101	oso	B
102	orasyon	A
103	pabo	T
104	pabula	F
105	pakay	P
106	pakyawan	W
107	padyak	S
108	pagbabawas	S
109	pain	B
110	payaso	C
111	palara	F
112	palaso	A
113	palikpik	F
114	palikuran	T
115	palong	C
116	paltos	B
117	pambalana	C
118	paminta	P
119	panday	B
120	panibugho	J
121	pantal	R
122	pantog	B
123	kiliti	T
124	paos	H
125	parabula	P
126	parirala	P
127	parokyano	P
128	parola	L
129	pasas	R
130	pastol	S
131	patibong	T
132	pekas	F
133	peluka	W
134	peklat	S
135	pilak	S
136	pilegas	P
137	pilikmata	E
138	pilipit	T
139	pinagbuhatan	O
140	pita	D
141	pluma	P
142	pranela	F
143	wisik	S
144	pugon	F
145	pulgada	I
146	pulikat	C
147	pruweba	P
148	pulot-pukyutan	H
149	pulseras	B
150	puswelo	C
151	buslo	B
152	rayuma	R
153	rebentador	F
154	rentas	R
155	repaso	R
156	rikado	I
157	roskas	T
158	saboy	S
159	sabsaban	M
160	sabuwatan	C
161	saknong	S
162	sakim	S
163	salamangka	M
164	salinlahi	G
165	salungguhit	U
166	sastre	T
167	selyo	S
168	sentido	T
169	serbesa	B
170	seradura	L
171	simboryo	D
172	silindro	H
173	singhot	S
174	sitsit	G
175	siyanawa	A
176	sorbetes	I
177	sugarol	G
178	sustento	A
179	suson	L
180	tabing	C
181	uwak	C
182	utong	N
183	alingawngaw	E
184	alingasaw	S
185	uhales	B
186	tutuli	E
187	tutuldok	C
188	tripulante	C
189	tigdas	M
190	tenyente	L
191	teklado	K
192	tanikala	C
193	talamak	C
194	talampas	C
195	taimtim	S
196	takipsilim	S
197	yungib	C
198	yugto	A
199	yodo	I
200	yeso	C

I will post the answers soon!!!

APOL=EPOL

2008-11-20T17:08:00.000+08:00

Bilang	Ang Salitang Tagalog	Starts with
1	abenida	A
2	adhika	A
3	aguhilya	H
4	ahedres	C
5	alpombra	C
6	amanos	Q
7	angkla	A
8	apog	L
9	asarol	H
10	asero	S
11	asoge	M
12	aspile	P
13	bagwis	W
14	bahagdan	P
15	batubalani	M
16	balara	D
17	balarila	G
18	balintataw	P
19	balumbon	R
20	bisig	A
21	butaw	F
22	kabanata	C
23	kabihasnan	C
24	kalaboso	J
25	kalasag	S
26	kalaykay	R
27	kamagong	M
28	kamisadentro	S
29	kapilya	C
30	kola	G
31	konde	C
32	koreo	M
33	krusipiho	C
34	kusot	S
35	dama	C
36	dikya	J
37	duhat	B
38	dutsa	S
39	eskrima	F
40	espongha	S
41	gabinete	C
42	gatilyo	T
43	gisantes	P
44	gulod	S
45	gunita	M
46	guryon	K
47	guwantes	G
48	halimaw	M
49	halingling	G
50	hapag	T
51	hibla	F
52	hilik	S
53	hinanakit	G
54	hinete	J
55	hinlalaki	T
56	hipo	T
57	hiringgilya	S
58	hugot	D
59	hulma	M
60	hunyango	C
61	hurno	O
62	igat	E
63	itsa	T
64	labaha	R
65	laktaw	S
66	lagda	S
67	lawin	H
68	lebadura	Y
69	lila	V
70	limos	A
71	lintik	L
72	lyre	L
73	lulon	S
74	luya	G
75	luwalhati	G
76	mabini	M
77	halubilo	M
78	balatkayo	D
79	mumog	G
80	lampaso	M
81	halimuyak	F
82	maharlika	N
83	laswa	D
84	himagsik	R
85	maselan	D
86	maton	B
87	maya	S
88	mayelo	I
89	medida	T
90	mitsa	W
91	mongha	N
92	muwebles	F
93	nangangalumata	H
94	nilaga	S
95	nitso	T
96	niyebe	S
97	nunal	M
98	ngawit	T
99	ngisi	G
100	nguya	C
101	oso	B
102	orasyon	A
103	pabo	T
104	pabula	F
105	pakay	P
106	pakyawan	W
107	padyak	S
108	pagbabawas	S
109	pain	B
110	payaso	C
111	palara	F
112	palaso	A
113	palikpik	F
114	palikuran	T
115	palong	C
116	paltos	B
117	pambalana	C
118	paminta	P
119	panday	B
120	panibugho	J
121	pantal	R
122	pantog	B
123	kiliti	T
124	paos	H
125	parabula	P
126	parirala	P
127	parokyano	P
128	parola	L
129	pasas	R
130	pastol	S
131	patibong	T
132	pekas	F
133	peluka	W
134	peklat	S
135	pilak	S
136	pilegas	P
137	pilikmata	E
138	pilipit	T
139	pinagbuhatan	O
140	pita	D
141	pluma	P
142	pranela	F
143	wisik	S
144	pugon	F
145	pulgada	I
146	pulikat	C
147	pruweba	P
148	pulot-pukyutan	H
149	pulseras	B
150	puswelo	C
151	buslo	B
152	rayuma	R
153	rebentador	F
154	rentas	R
155	repaso	R
156	rikado	I
157	roskas	T
158	saboy	S
159	sabsaban	M
160	sabuwatan	C
161	saknong	S
162	sakim	S
163	salamangka	M
164	salinlahi	G
165	salungguhit	U
166	sastre	T
167	selyo	S
168	sentido	T
169	serbesa	B
170	seradura	L
171	simboryo	D
172	silindro	H
173	singhot	S
174	sitsit	G
175	siyanawa	A
176	sorbetes	I
177	sugarol	G
178	sustento	A
179	suson	L
180	tabing	C
181	uwak	C
182	utong	N
183	alingawngaw	E
184	alingasaw	S
185	uhales	B
186	tutuli	E
187	tutuldok	C
188	tripulante	C
189	tigdas	M
190	tenyente	L
191	teklado	K
192	tanikala	C
193	talamak	C
194	talampas	C
195	taimtim	S
196	takipsilim	S
197	yungib	C
198	yugto	A
199	yodo	I
200	yeso	C

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2008-11-15T14:42:00.001+08:00

My first Christmas Card

2008-11-12T16:50:00.000+08:00

I can barely read when my Tatay send this straight from KSA.
It was all pure and simple but I felt that time that he meant when I was a special girl.
I know and everyone knows am the favorite of my Tatay then...until he died.....
He cannot spend Christmas then since he was working in Saudi.
This card was an evidence on how he made an effort to at least make me feel I am remembered.

My mom saw this in one of his boxes on their room last weekend
I will definitely keep it this time.
The very first Christmas card I recieved my entire life was from my dear Tatay.
All the more I miss him....

This will be our first Christmas without TATAY
I MISS YOU TAY.

My new phone

2008-11-12T05:35:00.000+08:00

hehehe...

My samsung u700-- has just been masked

G masked!!!

I wish I could sleep like this

2008-11-10T18:07:00.000+08:00

This is our dog Schumi...
I want to sleep as in doze off that I could REALLY rest....
But lately again, I can't.
Been 2 months and 11 days since I resigned...I think my biological clock should be normal na....and that I should be sleeping at night time...
I can't
I have been sleeping in the wee hours of the morning
But it's been 26 days since my Dad died...
I still miss him
I know missing him will be a part of our everyday life, no matter what
It's just I still cannot believe that he's gone.

Am clueless as well as to what I wanna do
I am set to leave but my mind is not set.
I dunno if it will be a good thing to spend Christmas in London
Or to just stay till I am sure Mum is okay, my sis are ok, my bro is ok
What the heck...am I OK?
Honestly am not.....
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

BTW it's my Ex's BIRTHDAY....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PERT
MY Wish???
grow up!

I got Plurked

2008-11-05T11:01:00.000+08:00

Plurk.com

Obama Wins : First Black American President

2008-11-05T08:15:00.000+08:00

Barack Obama swept to victory as the nation's first black president Tuesday night in an electoral college landslide that overcame racial barriers as old as America itself. "Change has come," he told a huge throng of cheering supporters.

The son of a black father from Kenya and a white mother from Kansas, the Democratic senator from Illinois sealed his historic triumph by defeating Republican Sen. John McCain in a string of wins in hard-fought battleground states — Ohio, Florida, Virginia, Iowa and more.

In his first speech as president-elect, Obama catalogued the challenges ahead. "The greatest of a lifetime," he said, two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century."

Knock Knocking on Heaven's Door

2008-11-04T17:40:00.000+08:00

My life the couple of months has been so bad and unfortunate..and I frankly questioned God why am having these trials and most of the time I think I cannot take it anymore.
A day after my birthday, my brother was hospitalized due to an infected thumb, being diabetic, it was so bad that it had to be pulled off. My brother lost a part of his thumb.
It was so painful that it had to happened a day after my birthday. My mom was with him the whole time, so it was double painful....I saw how my mum got hurt that a part of my brother's thumb will be pulled out..I was just positive about things, I wanted to be strong for my mom and my brother as well. It was doubly hard pretending to be tough.
We survived though, my brother survived the battle.He got operated, was hospitalized for a week and have to be resting and the wound to be completely healed...he was scheduled for another operation and a series of tests as well in the long run.

September was an okay month....it was hard on my part....I resigned effective August 31st, due to family emergency London has to wait...I was set to leave anytime before Novemeber but I needed to fix things first before heading off...

Then the unexpected happened.

My father became ill first week of October, we got him hospitalized last Oct 14, and a few hrs after he succumbed to myocardial infarction. Much worst, I was a witness on how he died, was in his room as nurses and doctors were trying to revive him. I dunno why I have to be there and cannot do anything. I was crying without tears, hoping againts hope, called a thousand angels and the Lord to help him, make a miracle and at one point told myself this could just be a dream as a few minutes before that was trying to nap and rest since it was almost 4 when my body grew tired of waiting and agonizing what is wrong with my Tatay's health.

He was pronounced dead at 6am October 15th. My mom on the side has been hysterical, I dunno how I managed to text my aunts, called my brother to atleast make it before my Tatay expired. asked the doctor what the hell is happening, pacified my mom, looked at my dad, and talked to him speak tp him and say something to make him feel we are there and we want him to live and be with us....what's worst? I have to pull him down to the morgue with an assistant form the hospital.

I never dared tell how I felt, what I saw....I sometimes just keep quiet to be able to accept these things.But this afternoon, I went out, and met up with my former officemate and tried to be tough and not pretend this time.

I think am accepting what have been...last week I know I was in denial. and mad, I will not deny that I questioned these trials and blamed God why me, why my Dad, why my Mom needs to suffer these pains. I even texted a friend one time while my Dad was so sick that I have nothing againts trials, it's just I think I had enough.

But true enough I think I am blessed with strong people around, I thought my Mom was such a weak person, but I am wrong turns out that my Mom is tougher that I think...she was able to plan the wake and burial and we made sure all the guests are well taken care of as well. My brothers were able to be the leaders as well during these ordeals, they planned well and made sure they will be around when we are tired and weary. My Kuya Jojo has been a clown when we need to stay up during those down times,my Kuya Rex was an ever ready listener when I need ed to whine. My two sis Che and Mimi was able to do the errands when I got a bit sick during the first few days of the wake.

I could have not made it as well without my friends around, without my family around.

And this is what God is showing me...that am never alone. and that he lost Jesus before, his only begotten son, and he understands, He always understands.

I thank you Lord for sticking it out with me when I almost lose grip.

That is why am knocking again in Heaven, I wish the next trial will not be a burden but an inspiration on me being strong amidst all these.

GOD SAW YOU

2008-10-27T18:59:00.000+08:00

God saw you getting tired
When a cure was not to be
So He wrapped his arms around you
And whispered. "Come to me"
You didn't deserve what you went through
So he gave you rest

God's garden must be beautiful
He only takes the best
And when I saw you sleeping,
So peaceful and free from pain
I could not wish you back
To suffer that again.

I miss you Tatay.....It's been 12 days and I still can't believe you will no longer come back.....But I trust that you are okay where you are now....

I am keeping my word, I will live your legacy, I will live your dreams and I will take care of my bros and sisters, and of course Nanay....

I just miss you, is it okay to cry once in a while?

Bye tatay

2008-10-22T19:39:00.000+08:00

My Tatay was laid to rest at 11am this morning at Manila Memorial Sucat Paranaque
It was so sudden as it is painful on our end.
I thank everyone who condoled with us and visited us, send flowers, mass cards and prayed for us.
Some was unable to come due to things that needs attention and I understand.
You can still continue to offer prayers,virtual candles and flowers, and offer tribute to out Tatay just click here

Thank you....and God Bless you.

What Now ???

2008-10-18T21:10:00.000+08:00

This has been the most tormenting period of my life....most of the time, I question why.
My Dad succumbed to myocardial infarction last Wednesday morning at East Avenue Medical Center in Quezon City after running series of tests, he had another attack and that did it.
I just came from his wake, I need to sleep and rest for another day of mourning, expecting guests and friends to grieve with us, am so tired that I just wish I could have better answers with these trials that am getting..that my family is getting.
The first two days has been depressing, not to mention I was there to witness how he died with nurses reviving him and trying their best to let the heart of my father beat again, they couldn't.
It was just so sudden that I am left with questions once in a while,and to top it all, he did not say anything few hours before he died.
All I could remember was, he was so worried that I have to walk from East Ave. to Heart Center..he asked me to take a jeep and to be careful.
I wish I could have told him something better, and made him feel that I was wanting him to get well.
I can't tell if he was ready coz we are not...Tay it has been three days, and I cant believe that you are not gonna come back.
Before watching TV was priceless, when you are around, now, I couldnt watch TV for more than 30 minutes.
Eating has been such a heaven when I eat with you...now I could not eat more than I want to...coz you're not in the dining table to share it with.
My brain is not functioning and I being tired is not in my system for days now....Sleepless, not eating much, and yet I manage to fix Tatay's flowers. candles, foods for the guests,food in the house, details of his interment.....and making sure my Mom is always ok and getting better, making sure my bro's medicine is monitored.
Yesterday was the last time I cried like a river after waking up and realizing that Tatay is gone.
Am trying to be strong yet I know Iam about to break down and just burst out crying again
What now after all these, I dunno.

I hope this too shall pass......

I Will Miss you Tay

2008-10-15T08:40:00.000+08:00

I wish you heard it Tay....
I love you...and you're the bestest father in the world no matter what they say.
I can't believe you're gone.

I already miss you....

I will always be your Neneng, and you're my one and only Tatay....

CLOSURE????

2008-10-09T20:05:00.000+08:00

life with you was full of drinking and smoking.

i had no sleep for weeks, looked like shit, tasted nothing but my tears...

no food. just water.

water to avoid dehydration. getting ready for another round of a breakdown.

in fact, every time this happens,

its like we relive the first time.

the first cut. the first time of our a million times of come and go's.

cry,fight,cry.

then we kiss and make up. then there it goes again.

its just like we're going around in circles.

we had so much disagreements.

from your chics down to your friends who had placed all the blame on me for breaking your heart.

for saying that i broke you and that i changed who you are.

but then i hope they'd get to read this and they'd understand why.

i've been trying to get over you since we were in 8th grade.

i tried so hard to find my knight and shining armor.

someone else to save me, to hold me with touch and to keep me with chains.

but you know what, every time i kissed someone else,

no matter how good they are or how much of a better kisser that person is,

i always end up looking for the taste of your lips.

as if i'm crazily addicted to it.

and every single day of loving and hurting,

my mouth would utter curses and bitter words.

what the heck do you want me to say?!

i was sick. i was tired. you were pulling me down. giving me invisible bruises.

i remember telling you that i've never felt so low in my entire life.

it wasn't like my boyfriend cheating on me. it was like my best friend betraying me.

it was like a slow death.

not a bullet shot through my head but a blunt sword cutting through my neck.

HURT WAS the word.

years of saying.. i'd go. i'd leave. couldn't do it those days.

there would always be something that would bring me back to you.

but i remember saying

"someday you will get hurt. not because i wanted to or not because i'm vengeful. someday you will cry because someday i have really fallen in love with someone else. don't wait for me to hurt you unintentionally".

and so then it goes... you held my hand and gave me another pile of your promises.

you saw tears falling from my eyes again.

and that time i believed you thought that i was ready for another round.

but then tears were falling because i was ready to let go.

let go of those years, 6 years.

it wasn't all bad. we were crazy about each other.

i was ready to give up my life for you.

my job that gives me hundreds of thousands in a week.

my "sexy" :)) body for i wanted to have your baby.

i thought you were the person i'd walk with to the altar.

i thought so.. or maybe i've always imagined it.

but then, my last cry wasn't about giving another chance.

it was about spreading my wings.

because the fire wasn't there anymore.

only ashes were left. and i still see them.

i still have them with me.

and then one day you asked me...

"why did it seem so easy for you to move on?"

now, i'd like to clear it up.

it wasn't easy.

it's just that every tear,

every pain

and every cut

was already a part of the process of moving on.

its been months since the last time we made love.

i guess we made it.

i guess i'm saying all of these things because i'm happy

that even if we had all the drama.

we found a way to get through it.

yes, i placed all my defenses above because this is the side of my story.

but with the talk and the fun we had the other night,

made me want to say "SORRY"

"Sorry i didn't wait for you to heal before i gave my heart to someone else".

this is just the real closure. i guess...

i'm happy now. you're happy now.

we've both set each other free.

we are now what we were really supposed to be

or what we really are fit to be.

we are now what they call friends.

by Rachel Fulange

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Just a thought....

He was in my dream last night, we were not talking for months now after the closure, he leaves messages on my ym...thinking how am doing....how am coping.

I am in my worst case scenario these days, things am not comfortable to blog about...but talked about my trusted few friends..I wanna blurt out, shout and get mad, but what is the use of venting.

I was at my best when we were together yet he gave me one of my worsts nightmare by hurting my heart real bad. why is that the very people you love will point blank hurt you unaware....

Just like that, you fell out of love,there are no more spark..and any other reason...you are just not at it...just like that?

I am just mad that I have been nice to you and you have the guts to lie and hurt me so bad.....

I know I haven't move on really.....but no matter what I do....no matter how many sorry you utter...I can never forget it......

Damn........

It was October 9th 2006 when I broke up with him after I found out he was fooling around..and I'm still..........hurt.

WTF!!!!

Reunited

2008-10-06T06:19:00.000+08:00

Teamates, no more.
Good to spend time with you guys,dunno if this is the last time that we're gonna see again.
I just wished the others could have tried to come khet sandali lang.
Thanks, good to see ya!!!!

Attention Team Chrysler

2008-10-02T14:23:00.000+08:00

Let us meet up this Saturday, October 4th, 2008 at Glorietta between 10am onwards, a day of fun for lunch, Timezone and Videoke..and who knows..bangengars time....heheh..

Miss you..let's meet up..talk and catch up.....
pm, txt me for info.......

This too shall pass.....

2008-09-28T11:08:00.000+08:00

Last night was a total realization of what have transpired to my team mates at my former work (note, I still believe am always a team mate even if I resigned). Ron, texted a very touching text message at almost 11 in the evening on my smart phone..if I may quote what he texted ;

" Nothing will compare with team Chrysler (our team name at work)
I'm so depressed, I miss the team so much. I havent fully accepted what happened, But I know I can do it. I can withstand the change..I just hope dt I can bear it. It's so hard to cope up wid all these chnageswithout the team. But I rather that we have been dissolved than not have meat at all."

I read the text message after 12am since my sis handed my handphone while I kinda dozed off...that woke me up but I did not mind, I think I need to console a friend and make him realize that he is not alone with all what he has been feelin. we ended up texting till wee hrs of the morning and even joked around that I may have been taking in calls that why Iam still awake. What Ron did not realized is that it took his text to make me realize that I need to react and make the team perk up and talk about the changes.

I know it's done and there is nothing we could do...but the mere fact that the thing happened at the onset of their new adjustment on the new account make me think why Ron is so sad..everyone feels sad, but for the heck of not adding wound to the injury, everyone from the team just shrugged the thought of those changes...they kept quiet, they needed time to smoothen things on the new account, what the other people did not realized, aside from the physical detachment form each other (I believed the team have been divided to three different teams),they are not aware that we cannot get through a day without joking and fighting around but each day ends with a smile and the thought that we motivate each other thus, we go to work never mind the stress and all...we do what we have to do I know, but sometimes we need that relationship on the floor just to lie-low...and hey we must realize, we establish friendship as well...

I can imagine how everyone felt...but like I always say to each one fo you everytime we have huddles, while we get snappy on those ever changing acct in CVG, this too shall pass...I wish I can always be there to talk to you all, have lunch with you guys, and just smile every freaking time we get encounter with these things...kaya nyo yan, changes are inevitable but let's just chersih the good memories,no one can take away lahat ng pngsamhan naten...they have no idea ano pingamsamahan naten....

Smile peeps.....there is always a rainbow after the rain....

SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT.......

2008-09-24T19:53:00.000+08:00

It's so funny how we set qualifications for the
right person to love, while at the back of our
minds we know that the person we truly love will
always be an exception.
There would come a time when we have to stop
loving someone not because that person started
hating us but because we found out that they'd be
happier if we let them go...
You will know when you really love someone when
you want him to be happy even if his or her
happiness means you are not a part of it.
If someone comes into your life and becomes a
part of you but for some reasons he couldn't
stay, don't cry too much... just be glad that
your paths crossed and somehow he made you happy
even for a while.
There are some things that we never want to let
go of...people we never want to leave behind; but
keep in mind those letting go is not the end of
the world, but rather it is the beginning of a
new life.
Just because someone doesn't love you the way you
want him or her to, doesn't mean they don't love
you with all he or she have.
Remember that the best relationship is when your
love for each other is greater than your need for
each other.
Two teardrops were floating down the river. One
teardrop said to the other, "I'm the teardrop of
a girl who loved a man and lost him. Who are
you?"..." I'm the teardrop of the man who regret
letting a girl go..."
You'll know that you miss someone very much when
every time you think of that person, your heart
breaks into pieces and just a quick "Hello" from
that person can bring the broken pieces back....
When you love someone draw a circle around their
name instead of a heart because hearts can be
broken but circles never end.
Just a thought: What would you do if the only
person who could make you stop crying is the
person who makes you cried?
"Every step I took since the moment I could walk
was a step towards finding you."
It's really painful to say goodbye to someone
else that you don't want to let go; but it's even
more painful to ask someone to stay if you can
never make the relationship work out the way it
should be.
LOVE? It's kind of complicated, but I'll tell you
this...the second you're willing to make yourself
miserable to make someone else happy, that's love
right there...
If I had the letters "HRT", I can add "EA" to get
a "HEART" or a "U" and get "HURT". But I'd rather
choose "U" and get "HURT than have a "HEART"
without "U"...
Giving someone all your love is not an assurance
that he will love you back. Don't expect love in
return, wait for it to grow in his heart, if it
doesn't, be contented it grows in you.
It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone, and a day to fall in love
with someone but it takes a lifetime to really
forget someone you have grown to love.
When friends fall in love, it means they are
meant for each other. But when friends fall out
of love, it means they want to keep each other
forever...
Don't be too good, I will miss you. Don't be too
caring, I might like you. Don't be too sweet, I
might fall. It's hard for me to love you when you
won't love me after all...
A heart truly in love never loses hope but always
believes.
If you love me please let me know because it
hurts to love when you have to go. Take care of
me, don't go away because if you love me, you
will stay... I love you and do you know why? You
got me when you first said 'Hi'.
What If someone tells you this: I don't believe
in courtship. It's just a waste of time. If I
love the person, I'll tell her right away. But
for you I will make an exception...just love me
now and I'll court you forever...
A man realized he wanted his love back. Not
wanting to get hurt, the girl said 'no'. The man
cried to God and asked 'If it is meant to be, why
did I lose her?" God replied, " My child, you
didn't lose her, you let her go..."
Of all the words of tongue and pen, these are the
saddest: "It could have been..."
No garden is complete without a rose to make it
sweet. No life is ever full without someone to
share it with, so take care of the person you
love.
When all the wishes in your heart, all the dreams
you've ever had, and all the things you've always
hoped for soared into the sky and were reflected
in someone else's eyes; then you've found your
destiny...
It's always better to have found the courage to
love even if you lose it in the end rather than
never found love because you were too afraid of
the challenge.
It's best to wait for the one you want than
settle for the one available, best to wait for
the one you love than the one who's around, best
to wait for the right one because life is too
short to be wasted on the wrong person.
Did you know that the _expression "Nothing" is the
subconscious mind's way of saying I love you....
Do you know why I'm telling you
this? ...Nothing!!!
I cry for the time that you were almost mine, I
cry for the memories I've left behind, i cry for
the pain, the lost, the old and the new...I cry
for the times I thought I had you!
Relationships are like glass, sometimes it is
better to leave them broken than try to hurt
yourself putting it back together, or worse, have
nothing strong to bind it together.
You never lose in loving. You only lose in
holding back.
Don't throw your back to love when it's already
in front of you, don't drive it away from you
because if you did, someday you'll think again
why you let love fly away when it was once next
to you.
I will not love you for the rest of your life but
for the rest of mine.
You make me smile for no reason whatsoever, you
make me laugh at the unfunniest things, but most
of all you make me love you when I shouldn't love
you.
I shouldn't love to fill an empty space...But to
have somebody stay by his as the missing place in
this life heals his own.
The greatest challenge in our life is to find
someone who knows our flaws and differences and
yet still willingly embraces you with so much
love.
When you look for the right person, you always
end up with the wrong one. But when you just sit
by the corner and wait, he comes along and shares
the corner with you.
If time never stands still, I'll never leave your
side. It may be too hard for me at times that you
will not see me; but in my heart, you'll always
be found.
If I were to describe love, I would compare it
with what one snowman did to another snowman-he
gave her a warm embrace and together they melted
in each other's arms.
The spaces between our fingers were created so
that another person's fingers could fill them in.
" Whenever I watch romantic movies, witness
couples kiss and make-up, listen to love songs...
I smile and feel good 'cause I know that love
still works, if not for me, at least to others." -
- Ally McBeal
I have to admit that I fell in love twice. First
was with you and second was with the person you
became when you were already mine. -- Joey,
Dawson's Creek
" After the pain a formal feeling comes...First
the chill, then the stupor, then the letting
go...." -- Nemesis
The real test of true love is having all the
things go wrong but still having a special way to
love despite of all the wrong things that may
happen.
Always take a chance. The end result may not
always be what you hoped for but that's fine...
At least, you will never go through life
wondering "What if... and "If only...."
Hold a friend's hand through times of trial, let
him/her find love through a hug and a smile...
But also know when it is time to let go, for each
and everyone of us must learn to grow.
Love is not a word to say when we feel guilty nor
the right word to say when we like a person...
But LOVE really matters when we share our
thoughts, our minds and our hearts.
A soul mate is someone who brings out the best in
you... They are not perfect but is always perfect
for you.
Genuine friendship is not measured by time... but
it is measured by acceptance... A friend is one
where even though you reflect the silver, he/she
sees the GOLD.
It takes 3 sec. to say "I love you", 3 mins. to
explain it, 3 hrs. to demonstrate it, 3 days to
appreciate it, 3 trimester to produce it... but a
LIFETIME to prove it.

I miss it?

2008-09-22T15:39:00.004+08:00

Call center has been my job for the last 4 plus years...and when I see this video joi took months ago..i asked myself...do i miss doing this?

Not...I miss the team though...

Paramdam nman kayo!!!Am still here and alive ahahahah

BORED TO DEATH

2008-09-16T09:45:00.000+08:00

I am just home, waiting and hoping the paper works and the things in there will be ironed out.turns out my resigning earlier than expected is a blessing in disguise as I have tons of things to do and a lot of getting ready to be culture shocked and adjusting in there....

Haist and later on tonight, my exit interview in CVG, now am beginning to feel that am jobless na, and no money on the atm at pay day (asa!)
Currently, bumming and almost broke....
hayyy..life.....

:p

Unforgettable

2008-09-07T22:48:00.000+08:00

I cant sleep and then I realized I havent bade my farewell to some of my team mates, pano nman kse..alanganin ung sked, they still have a shift that night and some were in off...anyways as my tribute to my team mates who are left in PBCOM....I wanna share and say these things.....

Fred.....Thanks for being open to changes, and for realizing that we do what we have to do...at times I know you also feel frustrated about things and all but as I always say..things just get better,I believe in you so believe in yourself as well.....

Joel...Thanks as well for being the person that you are...yung okay lang khet san, pdeng makinig sa hang ups nmen at ung tipo ng tao na kwela ren lalo na pag may friction within the team,namimiss ko yung emoticons mo mo sa quickom...am happy that u learned a little smthng from me as your mentor nung bago ka sa team...

Kris....too bad it was just a short while that I had the chance to get to know you better...one day when i needed to tell bout my fears and my sadness...you very well listened...remember the time you were waiting for Lyn, I thank you for that...I know nuthin mattered that day but I will always be thankful that you took time to listen..thanks for your kindness..

Lyn...thanks as well for keeping it up with me although I know at times. mdyo masyado na ko ma complain.I admire your toughness and how you almost quit CVG when you felt your Mum needs you more.just be patient...things will get better and if things are meant to be, youwill get there...Thanks for the unselfish acts you have shared with me and the team....

Jon....although we always fight, lam mo I just do that kse,lam ko u needed a little more boosting...and Iam just concern, when I say bad things, I want you to learn from it...but what you dont realize you also thought me to braver and tougher...with those kwentos you share am honored that Iam your trusted few...know also that Iam always around to listen..wag lang mony talks..wala ako nyan ahahah
Spike...how can I not forget you..akala ko isa kang aangas angas na indibidwal..pero one day you texted me and was just so hurt about your feelings for one person, that proved me wrong..isa ka palang..EMOTERO!!!! heheh kidding aside, I was also touched that you trusted me with sharing your thoughts and feelings..and let me quote again...this too shall pass...I know you are having a heavy ordeal..but you are one brave indie and alam ko malalgpasan mo yan...just try harder this time and prove to em what they are gonna miss....:p
Ron...grabe...he is the person who is responsible for all the kikay stuffs we have on the team..heheh form the id's...and yung surprise party ko na ginawan mo p ng invitation...how can I not be forever grateful to you...ang taong tumatwag sa ken ng boss dee..na hnde ko nman alam kung bket..I surely dont know what I have done to you to make me feel so special...pero salamat...I know you willgo places dude coz I know na mabait ka, you go by the rules and you stand for what you believe is right...keep up all the good works...salamat Ron, I will miss you and your Maverick looks ahahaha.....

Joi..haist..grabe mamimiss ko din to sobra..garve on my last month sa CVG, sya yung kashift ko, one day when my bro was hospitalized and operated,I cried infornt of him and he was damn cared and told me to stop crying and that I might rcvd a call n daw...hehehe....I acknowledge you worrying about me...salamat, ikaw ay isa palang sweet na tao ehehe....I just wanna tell u na khet akala ko na me pagka green ka...you uttered to trust the Lord with everything....and I will forever rmemeber that...;p

Jovi...my twin sis...dahil marami kmeng pagkakapareho ni Jovi, madalas napagkakamalan n kme twins nito..pano ba nman pareho kme ng glasses, pareho food tripper, at pareho kmeng sexy ahahah....Jovi..amishu! I miss our tambay sa lab...kain sa 711 or goto tripsa Pasong tamo...at miss ko n company mo...I hope you be strong khet minsan andami sablay salife know always that if you work hard on smthng...mararating mo yun, and pursue your dream to study again, pag ipunan mo and you will get it :p

Cressy....i will forever remember you, I know..from mutiny days till you fell inlove again...I miss you na..lam ko we havent been spending time even andyan ako sa CVG, but you were one of the few I am not afraid yo cry on, to say what I really feelkse alam ko you will understand me always without question..thanks kse isa ka tlga sa nagpalkas ng loob ko nung times I wanna quit na..I never believe in myself till you told me to be brave and that I am trying to be brave, as soon as I get there and followmy dreams I promise you...your 5 1/2 nike shoes and of course friends forever..:p

Si Ed...ang ng goal na ihahanap ako ng boyfriend..until I get over my stupid ex...sadly ala syang nahanap...:)) I miss you Ed..i know at times, nagugulat n lng ako na me ituturo k sken n guy pero I dnt think they are my type eheheh....I just wanna thank you for all the things I learned from you, yung mga call spiels ko patterned and gaya from you...you are so good in giving advices and one of the very few who are my main reason why I gave it a try again and again pag feel ko ng mag quit..I swear sayo pa lang ata dozen times na ko ngresign sa CVG...Thanks tlga...

Elmer...kahet ganyan ka...I am honored to be your friend..hahaha joke...alam ko me times na people misunderstood you,ako din pero iba ka mag treat ng friend...lalo na yung isa na heheh nevah mind...I will forver remember you especially yung videoke sessions nten...yung inaari mon yung mic, yung TimeZone hrs naten.at yung times na you are so loose about things when the going gets tough...a fewpeopleknow that you are such a good person akalin mo b nmang journalist k dn para mabgay mo pangangailangan ng family mo...basta be strong and just one piece of advice...take care of yourself as well....

Lots of things I need to say pero salahat ng mga taong naksama ko sa floor, and to all those who have spend their 2 minutes of their time with me...Salamat!!!

This has been Dee, Thank You very much for choosing AT and T, where we value your business....Signing off

For My Mentor.....

2008-08-28T08:11:00.000+08:00

I was about to blog about this QC moments with my then TL Jojo Gayem days after he decided to shift campaigns at CVG, ...this chat made me feel so proud and at the same time an eye opener and realization that am not doing so bad after all on my job the times am so doubtful about my stand...anyways..it is my last day tommorrow at CVG..though sad, I just wanna share and yea, flaunt that I may have done not so good the couple of months but at least there was this one day and one person in the office that made me feel worthy....and trusted me to be better....

This chat dated Feb 16 2008, days before TL Jojo is not our TL anymore...
I swear after this chat he made me cry again...the timew we were talking bout him leaving the team made me cry naman eh ahahahah

Diana.A.Vitto> thanks
Julius Gayem> hey dee :
Julius Gayem>
Diana.A.Vitto> hello
Julius Gayem> no. this room is just for the two of us
Julius Gayem>
Diana.A.Vitto> ah gnun y??anythng serious hahah
Diana.A.Vitto> yoko ng iyakan ah not this sunday heheh
Julius Gayem> im going to give you feedback on how you did last month
Julius Gayem> kaw naman o
Julius Gayem>
Diana.A.Vitto> okay
Julius Gayem> you have impressive scores
Diana.A.Vitto> nyah even if
Diana.A.Vitto> i got sick
Julius Gayem> i still remember your 1st few days with the team
Julius Gayem> your crying moments...
Julius Gayem> look at you now
Diana.A.Vitto> haha yah i know i still do ryt i just dont show it
Julius Gayem> performing like you've been doing this all your life
Diana.A.Vitto> nyah
Julius Gayem> 1/1 telsam
Diana.A.Vitto> tsamba
Julius Gayem> 10/10 CFT; 81% CPATS: 2 PTV 86% AP 5.08 absenteeism. that is not tsamba keep it up!
Diana.A.Vitto> hahah
Julius Gayem> tsamba is not consistent
Julius Gayem> ikaw consistent ka...
Diana.A.Vitto> iam not heheh
Julius Gayem> im very proud of you dee
Diana.A.Vitto> thanks am proud of the team
Julius Gayem> you bring justice to my position. You make me feel its all worth it Dee
Diana.A.Vitto> tlga
Julius Gayem> thank you so much from the bottom of my heart.
Julius Gayem> keep it up
Julius Gayem> if i have a chance i'll pull you one by one for coaching
Julius Gayem> later

Thanks TL...I am just so proud that you have been one of my mentors...I hope if we have time we can all meet up again..we miss you..

Thank You Team Chrysler

2008-08-19T22:17:00.000+08:00

I couldn't imagine my team would go out of their way to plan the "despidida party" for me a while ago...it was our common off and the week that was has been so stressful both here at our house and at work...I was about to excuse myself from that party since I needed to do things at home and too lazy to go out....

I woke up at 4pm...unknown if am really going or not...we were to meet up at TL Thelo's place...lam ko kse something is fishy..I actually felt it when Ron, would not like me to see the papers he was showing to my other team mates...Knowing me, I hate surprises....big time...I like to surprise people pero pag ako gagawan ng surprise...deym, I find it awkward!

I took a cab at past 6...I was about to tell them that Iam not going na, but when TL Thelo texted me back and Jovi trying to call me, I went out na...

Jovi and Jon ( who I haven't been talking for the last 2 weeks till yesterday) went to fetch me at Crossing...off we went to California Gardens....the moment the door was opened, CJ, Elmer and Ron were jamming complete with guitars..parang acoustic concert...and then Dyaaaraaannnnn...they went to show me the invitation...the moment I opened it, my face was there...it was a night to remember...to celebrate and strengthen good friendship...my farewell party...I cried...nobody went out of their way to surprise me this way.....I have never felt so special until now..I asked them why they have to do this...I cried, as usual....

May program ah...Jovi went to sing a song with Ron and Elmer, Elmer also sang as well as CJ, grabe they sang songs I love to sing on Videoke, songs about friendship, damn,parang artista na me birthday at pnapnuod ng madla ahahah..we had pizza, softdrinks, and buco pandan, but nothing compares to the friendship and the company we were sharing at the moment.....

Tapos it was time to say things they wouldnt forget about me...It was started by CJ, n khit di n nmen ka team was so grateful about my friendship, the toothpaste we share, and the gay lingos we love saying...I thank you CJ for being the kikay that you are as well! and Kris though new on the team prove to be a good person inside and out kaya me nagkakacrush sau sa floor eh ehehehe....Lyn who has been my good friend to share ideas with, I know things are not easy but I trust that you will pull through! Jovi, who has been like a younger sister to me, I will surely miss you, at magboyfriend ka na no! I will miss our mall roaming and the Pyrolympics...And Spike, I am grateful as well that you trust me when you say your problems, and Iam proud of what you have become when I was mentor when you are new in the team...you are one great agent ano! And Iam happy that you acknowledge my advices, this too shall pass Spike,i know....Jon, though nag aaway tayo lagi, just put it this way, isa lang akong ate na concern, keep doing what you're doin and reach your goals dude..Ron...my gawd..you have a way of surprising people....salamat sa efforts mo from designing our team id's and for putting up this mini-farewell party..I am so grateful! Iam happy that I have been a good influence to you...Elmer..I know we have been on the team for ages, I do know everything about you...basta magpakatino ka na no!!! hehe salamat sa friendship and for being one of the few people on the floor who have been helpful to me....forever ko yun tatanawin..at hnde ko kakalimutan ang chocolate mo sa Inglatera ano! TL Thelo, thanks din I know I havent been really open to you it's not that I dont want to..but Iam grateful for all the things you have done to me and the team...keep it up..

Raz..thanks as well for being the litte sister that I never had....ung tipong naive na hnde ahahah..i miss our crying sessions

Rhea...I am proud that you have worked your way on being a TL..salamat sa lahat especially for uplifting me whenever am down..I will spend time with you I promise!

Cressy..I am so grateful for your friendship and for believing that Iam a tough girl khet hnde ahaha...love you!

Ed.. I know your sick now pero...I will surely miss you lalo na kapag inuurot mo ko kung kani-kaninong lalake :p

To my new team mates Fred,Joel, David..Lou Anne....thanks as well for smiling and for sticking with the team khet minsan magulo kame ahahah

I don't know what I did to deserve all our efforts and time to surprise me...this....makes it even harder to say good bye in 2 weeks....

But like I said distance is just a matter of miles but never feelings....Good bye is just a word, keeping in touch is a promise...

Now I know why we are called a team.....

Night people.... Pixs to follow...